[R18] These men are poisonous – “These Men Are Poisonous” [Extra] Diary [English]

On the Dragon Boat Festival, Fang Jinglun’s sister Fang Yirou gave birth to a daughter, whom she named Xiaozongzi.

Zuo Ning had experience in childbirth and childcare. She often went to the hospital to accompany Fang Yirou from a few days before the due date. When the baby was born, she was busy going in and out with Fang’s mother, taking good care of Fang Yirou.

When she gave birth to twins, although Fang’s mother did not recognize her as her daughter-in-law, she still cooked porridge and soup at home every day and asked Fang Jinglun to deliver it to her.

Now, as the days go by, the Fang family’s parents gradually accept her, their attitude towards her is getting better and better, and they love the two twins very much.

“The taste is still wrong. I haven’t made this soup since you gave birth. It seems my skills are rusty. There is a utility room next to the garage in the basement. There is a bookcase in it. The notes I took in the previous cooking class should be thrown away in that cabinet. Ningning, go and find it for me.”

“Okay, mom, please wait a moment.”

Although it was a utility room, it was always cleaned. It was very clean and bright when the lights were turned on. Zuo Ning didn’t need to search much when he saw a thick notebook.

But when she opened it, she found it was not the one she was looking for.

The handwriting on it is neat and the writing is strong and powerful. At first glance, it is written by Fang Jinglun.

And this notebook is Fang Jinglun’s diary.

Day 15

I have been in the UK for half a month and this is the sixth time I have dreamed about her.In the dream, she smiled happily, something I had never seen before.I hope that one day, she can really let go of everything and come out of the shadow of the past.Even if I will not be involved in her life, I hope she can have that happy smile on her face every day.

Day 32

I heard my classmates talking behind my back, saying that I love to show off, that I can talk and laugh happily in front of boys, but have a cold face when facing girls.I suddenly realized that her influence on me was far greater than I thought.Actually, I should change.

Day 37

At a fraternity party, I had a falling out with a senior who deliberately threw red wine at me to cause an accident. My classmates laughed at me for not understanding the style.It turns out I was wrong and I can’t change it.Not as long as that person is not she.

Day 46

My mother said that a friend’s daughter came to London to play and asked me to take care of her for a few days.In fact, I understood what she meant and wanted to try again, but unfortunately it failed again.She is prettier than Zuo Ning, more cheerful than Zuo Ning, and she likes me better than Zuo Ning, but she is not Zuo Ning.

Day 59

Dr. Lin said that Zuo Ning recently wrote short stories on a website, hoping to use words to relieve the pain in his heart.I couldn’t help but read it. The writing was very good, but it was heart-wrenching to watch.Zuo Ning, how long will it take for you to come out?

Seventieth day

I rejected a girl’s confession and was scolded by her for a long time in tears. When she asked me why she was so nice to me, I always treated her coldly. In fact, I didn’t know. Anyway, that person was not Zuo Ning, so I couldn’t laugh.

Day 106

It’s finally Christmas vacation. Although it’s only a two-week vacation, I still went back to my country.I asked Dr. Lin to ask her out and secretly saw her. She seemed to have lost weight again, but her mental state was much better. Maybe, she was not far away from completely getting rid of depression.Zuo Ning, come on.

Day 115

I have to return to the UK tomorrow, and I suddenly feel so reluctant to leave her.I disguised myself and went back to the university we once shared, hiding behind her and accompanying her to two classes, but she didn’t even notice.In fact, I should be happy. If she discovers me, it will definitely cause trouble to her again, but I feel a little disappointed for some reason. She didn’t discover me. Is it because I disguised myself too well, or has she forgotten me a long time ago?

Day 137

After the final exam, I can finally go back to my country. It’s been less than a month since I last saw her, but I miss her more than usual. Maybe I shouldn’t see her again, but I can’t help it.

One hundred and forty-four days

She also had winter vacation and went to work in a milk tea shop.I can see her in the private room of the restaurant opposite every day, and I feel so happy.I asked the restaurant owner to ask her to buy dozens of cups of milk tea for the employees in the store to drink. I finally did the right thing that I had done wrong when school started.But if she is asked to make so much milk tea at once, will she be tired?

Day 197

She has started to serialize novels online. Compared with the heart-wrenching short stories before, she seems to be much better now. The writing style is quite funny. It seems that her mood has improved.There is actually a supporting actor named Fang in the novel. Did she suddenly think of me when she was naming her?Forget it, stop being narcissistic.

Day 216

I rewarded her novels with generous book coins. She was so happy and kept thanking me.It’s a pity that I, the biggest book fan, dare not take the opportunity to chat with her. After all, she is so smart. What if she finds out and it’s me?Every time I comment on her, I have to act like a little girl, which makes me feel like I am becoming a pervert.

Day 235

The supporting actor named Fang died, and he died miserably. It seems that he was not based on me. Even if she didn’t like me, she wouldn’t curse me, right?Will it?Actually a bit unsure.

Day 248

A new character appears in the book. He is the last person to appear in the protagonist group but has the most aura. She replied to the book friend that this character is based on a very important friend of hers. Will that person be me?

Day 261

The new character has a very good personality. He is a typical tall, rich and handsome man, enthusiastic about justice, sunny, cheerful, gentle and considerate. Except for his occasional impulsiveness, he is full of good qualities. Is such a character really based on me?She hasn’t forgotten me?Do I have such a good image in her mind?I really want to ask her, but I don’t dare.

Day 293

I actually saw she posted a photo on her Weibo. Although she deleted it in seconds, I was faster and saved it in seconds. Fortunately, I set her to pay special attention.The photo is so beautiful. It will be the lock screen of your phone from now on. If you take a look at it every day when you stay up late studying, it will probably revive you with full health.

Day 310

I’m so envious when I see so many people returning to China after graduation.Unfortunately, I have just completed my preparatory studies, and the days ahead are still long. After careful calculation, it will take another five years at the earliest to obtain a master’s degree.But five years later, will Zuo Ning still remember me?Could it be that she is already married?Will she have a lovely child with the man she loves?If we meet one day, will her child call me uncle?I don’t dare to think about it, I can’t think about it, but I can’t help but think about it.

The diary was very long, filling up a notebook, but Zuo Ning could no longer read it.

Fang Jinglun didn’t tell her much about his past in the UK. Every time he talked about it, he was either lighthearted or coquettish and funny.She never thought deeply about how he got through those six years.

But now looking at these simple and unsentimental diaries, she felt a pang in her heart.

That man, such a stupid and crazy man, made her feel heartbroken.

“Honey, didn’t you find it? It’s true that my mother just told me no at the top of her lungs. You’re not familiar with this place, and I asked you to find something.”

Fang Jinglun muttered and walked into the utility room. What he saw was Zuo Ning’s face with tears streaming down his face and his eyes red. He was frightened and nervous for a while: “What’s wrong? Is there a mouse or something in here? Are you scared?”

Zuo Ning didn’t answer, just stared at he with tears in his eyes and biting his lip.

Then, looking down, he saw the diary in her hand.

“This… why is this here? I thought it had been thrown into the trash a long time ago.” Fang Jinglun scratched his head unnaturally, “This was just written for fun. It’s too childish, the writing is bad, and there’s nothing interesting to read.”

“Yes, the writing is so bad.” Zuo Ning sniffed, but still couldn’t hold back the tears, “Fang Jinglun, you are a big fool!”

“Okay, okay, I’m a big fool, I’m a big idiot, okay?” Fang Jinglun was really frightened by her appearance, and kept wiping her tears, “Stop crying, your eyes are going to be swollen when you look at it. When you go out later, your parents will think I bullied you.”

“You’re just bullying me.” Zuo Ning looked at him aggrievedly, “I haven’t cried since I got married except for the day I gave birth. It’s all your fault.”

“Okay, okay, it was me who caused it. Can’t I apologize to you and make amends for my crime?”

“No.” As soon as she finished speaking, she rushed forward and kissed his lips fiercely, and her warm tears wetted his handsome face.

Her kiss was very urgent and forceful. This kind of action was always done to her by men, but now she seemed to be swallowing him into her belly, constantly grabbing his lips and sucking and biting his tongue hard.

After lingering selflessly for a long time, she slowly let go of his lips, but her whole body was still pressed tightly into his arms.

“Husband.”

“Huh?”

“I love you.”

“I know.”

“No, you don’t know, I love you more than you think, I love you very much, I really love you.”

“I love you more than you think, very much.”

“We must grow old together, okay?”

“Fool, of course.”

“Husband.”

“Huh?”

“It’s okay, I just wanted to call you.”

“Yeah.”

“Husband.”

“Yeah.”

“Kiss me.”

“Okay.”

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Today is Zongzi Festival, happy holiday to all my cuties~~

I have always considered myself to be a tearful person. I usually don’t react when others cry when watching dramas. Unexpectedly, when I was writing this chapter, I almost burst into tears hahahaha. I was so emotionally involved that I thought of myself as a bitter Fang Jinglun~~

When I look back now, that emotion is gone, and there are no tears left (sadness