[R18] These men are poisonous – “These Men Are Poisonous” Chapter 137 [English]

Chapter 137 Fang Jinglun Extra Four

The process of treating depression is naturally extremely long. Fortunately, Zuo Ning was willing to cooperate and began to tentatively trust Dr. Lin.

Fang Jinglun, like Zuo Ning’s three roommates, would spend time with her whenever he had the opportunity, whether it was for classes, part-time work, or occasional leisure time on weekends, he was like a dog-skin plaster that he couldn’t get rid of no matter how hard he got rid of.

The unsavory rumors about Zuo Ning in the school were gone, but new ones soon spread: the school beauties Fang and Zuo Ning were a couple, and the school beauties were chasing after them very closely.

When he first heard this rumor, Fang Jinglun himself was shocked. When did he and Zuo Ning become a couple?When did he chase Zuo Ning?

But it seems that not only he’s classmates, but also Zuo Ning’s three roommates all agree that he does so many things for Zuo Ning because he likes her.

Like it?

Fang Jinglun didn’t know, but he didn’t want to explain to others. In fact, he was just atonement.

Even if Zuo Ning later told him that she committed suicide at that time, it had nothing to do with him. She just missed her deceased relatives too much.

But he still felt that he was wrong and needed to compensate for his foolish belief in rumors and self-righteousness that hurt her self-esteem time and time again.

He actually has no idea about love. He doesn’t know what it feels like to like him. Anyway, he can see that Zuo Ning is getting better day by day and the smiles on his face are getting more and more, which makes him happy.

At the end of the semester, a boy placed a large heart-shaped candle downstairs in Zuo Ning’s dormitory to confess his love. He even wanted to kiss her when she was at a loss. Fang Jinglun happened to see it and rushed up to the man and knocked out one of his front teeth.

Naturally, this matter became a hot topic on the school forum. Many people made fun of the boy for not overestimating his abilities and actually daring to compete with Fang Jinglun. It was only then that Fang Jinglun realized that he might really like him.

When winter vacation comes, everyone has to go home, and he is no exception, but Zuo Ning still applied to stay in school because she is homeless and has to continue working to make money.

With the stupid experience of giving money directly, Fang Jinglun did not dare to act rashly, so he could only work part-time in the same cafe as Zuo Ning, so that he could see her every day and help her as much as possible.

One night after work, he sent Zuo Ning back to the dormitory as usual. The entire campus was deserted. When he said goodbye downstairs in the dormitory, looking at her delicate lips, he finally couldn’t help but lower his head and kiss her.

But no one came to kiss her, and she was so frightened that she sprained her foot.

He hurriedly sent the person to his hospital, and after explaining the whole story to his sister, he was laughed at severely.

Fang Yirou told he that a gentleman’s behavior should be to confess love first and then kiss, otherwise a girl like Zuo Ning, who is already introverted, would not be able to accept it.

So he was so confused that he bought flowers and gifts that day, confessed his love to Zuo Ning in the hospital, and said that he would never marry her unless she was in his life. Zuo Ning was so scared that he ran away from the hospital.

Two shameful experiences made him feel annoyed, regretful and self-blame.

He originally thought that Zuo Ning didn’t want to see him again, but a week later, Zuo Ning, whose foot injury was slightly better, continued to work again. When he saw him, he didn’t run away anymore. She said to give her some time and wanted to think about it seriously.

Fang Jinglun was so excited that within a few days he hurriedly invited Zuo Ning to his home for dinner, and Zuo Ning did not refuse.

In the days that followed, although Zuo Ning did not formally agree to be his girlfriend, she agreed no matter what he wanted to do.

Of course, he never dared to touch her easily again, and he was very careful with her, for fear that he would make her angry if he did something wrong.

But Zuo Ning was always gentle and submissive in front of him, and he never even said a harsh word to him.

He thought that was what love looked like, until one day Dr. Lin told him that Zuo Ning’s condition had worsened, and it was because of him.

Fang Jinglun was stunned on the ground, unable to believe what Dr. Lin said. He was obviously so good to her, so how could he cause such a result?

“Zuo Ning’s situation is special. She suffered a major blow from the unexpected death of her family member overnight, and she suffered from depression. You and her three roommates saved her life and rekindled her hope of living. She can only be grateful to you with all her heart.

But you are different from her three roommates. She and she are friends. Even if Zuo Ning is so grateful that he is willing to do anything for them, their relationship is still friends. Those three girls will not want anything from her.

And you confessed to her that you wanted her to be your girlfriend, and you even said that you would not marry her unless she was your girlfriend.In her current situation, a relative has just passed away, and she has no intention of falling in love or having sex with men. However, she is full of gratitude to you, so she has been forcing herself to accept you, which adds a lot of pressure and affects her recovery.”

That night, Fang Jinglun completely lost sleep and felt that he was extremely ridiculous again.

He tried hard to recall the scenes of Zuo Ning getting along with him during these days. Her attitude, which was even more cautious than his, made him regret it again.

Finally, after arguing with his family several times, he proposed that he was willing to go abroad.

Naturally, his family scolded him again. After all, he had been in college for half a year before he realized it was too late. However, because he insisted on studying medicine, his family still agreed.

The reason why he chose psychological medicine is that he hopes that one day he can be like Dr. Lin, who can help Zuo Ning, understand her inner world better, and listen to her voice.

Because he only applied to study abroad after attending university, and it was not in line with his original major, he had to start from scratch.I went to the UK to study for one year of preparatory studies, another three years to complete my undergraduate degree, and two years to get the most difficult master’s degree in medicine.

After studying hard day and night, he finally became a top student that his family was satisfied with, but only he knew that he was just using reading to distract himself from missing that person so much.

He has been keeping in touch with Dr. Lin and keeping abreast of Zuo Ning’s condition.I know that she is gradually getting better, I know that she has been evaluated and recovered, I know that she has stepped out of her original world and is becoming more and more cheerful, and I also know that she has started writing novels online.

No matter how busy he is with his studies, he is constantly following each of her novels. He can see her recent state of mind from her words, and he can also know her current situation from her Weibo and her chats with readers.

But the only thing he didn’t dare to do was communicate directly with her.He is afraid of his existence, which is still the source of her psychological pressure.

He didn’t dare to express his longing for her, or even show any unnecessary concern.Except for pretending to send greetings to everyone during the holidays, except for her birthday and politely saying happy birthday, he didn’t dare to say a single extra word.

Before going to the UK, he also thought that maybe if he was far away, his longing would fade away, or if he got in touch with other girls, he would have a new relationship and a new beginning.

But everything is not as simple as imagined.

As time passed year by year, he found that his thoughts were still there.