[R18] These men are poisonous – “These Men Are Poisonous” Chapter 130 [English]

Chapter 130 I don’t need it anymore

So, you want to tell me that I…became my own substitute?

Hearing what Zuo Ning said, Yu Haonan became even more anxious. He, who was usually decisive and strategizing, had never been so overwhelmed and busier and more chaotic.

“No, there is no substitute, there has never been a substitute. Ning Ning, I have never regarded you as anyone’s substitute. I let you be with me in the first place, not because of who you looked like. I could always tell that you were Zuo Ning.

That day you asked me if I love you, if I like you, it’s not because I treat you as a substitute and can’t answer, it’s just that I never know what love is, nor what is the kind of pure liking you mentioned.

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have hesitated. I know it made you misunderstood and hurt you, but I just didn’t want to deal with you, let alone lie to you.

Before I knew you were the one I’d been looking for, I had already made a choice. I only wanted you and no one else.No matter you have long hair or short hair, no matter you are innocent, or you do the things you do to stimulate me, I only want you.

On Wen Nianqing’s birthday, I said those words, which not only insulted you in public, but also put you in danger. It’s me who deserves to die, I’m the bastard. You can hate me as much as you want, you can scold me and hit me, but you can’t help but believe me. Everything I said today is the truth.”

Seeing the beads of sweat rolling down his forehead, the anxious look on his face, and the obvious sincerity in his eyes, Zuo Ning was silent for a moment and said with a smile: “I believe you, and I don’t hate you.”

The tense body finally relaxed a little. Yu Haonan was overjoyed at first, but then he couldn’t believe it: “You…are you telling the truth?”

“Of course it’s true, but…” Zuo Ning chuckled and shook his head, “Yu Haonan, you know? I was very wrong in the past. As long as others gave me a little care, I would be so moved that I couldn’t help but want to hold all the warmth in my hands, but I couldn’t help being afraid of losing, always worried about gains and losses, always… pretentious and entangled, living really tired.

Over the past year or so, I suddenly figured out why I have to wait for others to give me what I want.I want warmth, protection, a sense of security, lots and lots of love, and a home of my own. But anything given by others may be lost one day, so why should I eagerly crave for it?

Before being adopted by the Jiang family, I lived alone for twelve years and suffered all kinds of hardships. Why did I become so pretentious and fragile after staying in the greenhouse for six years?

So, now, I’m sorry, even if you give me your whole heart, I don’t want it anymore. I don’t need anyone else’s heart.”

Before Yu Haonan could recover from the joy of the previous moment, he felt like he had been hit hard again.This time, even his shoulders began to tremble.

He has imagined many reunion scenarios, thought that she might still be angry, thought that she might give him a slap, thought that she might scold him…

He has made all preparations to be scolded or even hated by her, and he has also made up his mind to gain her forgiveness and trust, whether he begs or stalks.

Now, she said so easily that she didn’t hate him and believed in him, but he could no longer be happy. Instead, she felt endless fear in her heart, almost to the point of despair.

She said that even if he gave her his whole heart, she wouldn’t want it anymore.

She doesn’t want it anymore.

Wen Kaian also froze on the ground with a complicated expression. He turned to look at Zuo Ning who was so close, but suddenly felt that she was so far away from him.

If just now, one of the two men in this room was the winner, then at this moment, he, like Yu Haonan, was completely defeated.

What Zuo Ning didn’t want was more than Yu Haonan’s heart.

He Wen Kai’an’s heart, she doesn’t want it either.

Just like when she was under him, she still said that she was not responsible for him. Now, even if people are standing in front of him, she is afraid that she will leave at any time, leaving without sadness or joy.

“Yu Haonan, actually, I also made mistakes between us. Now that I have heard so much from you, and think about it carefully, if we could have had a good talk at that time, maybe everything would not be like what happened later. You were too proud, and I was too conceited, too paranoid, and too extreme, so we hurt each other like that. Fortunately, everything is over long ago. From now on, let’s go our separate ways. Take care of yourself.”

Watching her walk to the balcony, calmly take off her clothes, return to the room and close the door, Yu Haonan was stunned for a long time, and then suddenly rushed up and slammed the door: “Ning Ning, Ning Ning blames me, not you, blame me for being stupid, not seeing my own feelings clearly, blame me for being stupid, obviously because I care about you, but I hurt you in that way, please don’t do this, okay? Ning Ning…”

There was no response in the room. Wen Kaian looked in that direction, suddenly bent down to pick up a bag that he had just thrown on the ground, took a bunch of keys from the entrance and walked to Yu Haonan’s side.

Open the door, enter, and lock it, all in one go.He and Zuo Ning were in the room, but Yu Haonan was isolated.

Zuo Ning was changing his clothes. He was not surprised when Wen Kaian came in. He just glanced at the bag in his hand and said, “I’ll do it myself.”

Wen Kaian didn’t listen to her words. He walked over and pressed her shoulders to make her sit on the bed. He lifted up her skirt and took off her underwear. He took out cotton swabs and ointment from the bag and said in a deep voice: “Open your legs.”

Zuo Ning didn’t even blush when she was having sex, but now that he was squatting between her legs and looking at her so solemnly, she felt a little uncomfortable.

When Wen Kaian saw that she didn’t respond, he stretched out his hand to spread her legs, applied ointment with a cotton swab, and then used his other hand to help, slowly exploring her somewhat red and swollen hole.

“Hiss…” As soon as the sensitive petals were touched by the cotton swab, Zuo Ning took in a breath of cold air. He didn’t know whether the tingling sensation was more or the numbness was stronger.

“I’m sorry.” He softened his movements, his eyes full of regret, “Last night… I was too rude.”

Zuo Ning curled his lips and said, “I did it myself.”

He gently opened the two petals with his fingers, then inserted the cotton swab into it, and slowly rolled it over the delicate flesh wall.

“Well…” As soon as the shameful moan came out, Zuo Ning bit his lips quickly, but the flower grotto still shrank subconsciously.

Wen Kaian’s Adam’s apple moved slightly and her breathing was somewhat disordered, but he still carefully applied the medicine to her, put her underwear back on, and tidied her clothes.

Seeing the tense look on He’s face, Zuo Ning quietly glanced at He’s crotch and found that it was already stretched high, so he couldn’t help but chuckled: “Are you hard? Why are you hard so fast?”

Wen Kaian ignored her teasing and said in a hoarse voice: “The breakfast I bought just now broke. I’ll take you out to eat.”

Zuo Ning pointed to his lower abdomen: “Are you sure you can get out like this?”

“Just calm down.”

“Then do you want me to help you?”