715 Chapter 714 of “The Quick-Traveling Girl Is Poised to Knock Down the Male Protagonist”

My love is more real than the country (one hundred and fifty-two)

Deng…

Yan Sui’s heart suddenly trembled. After hearing Zhou Min’s words, Yan Sui was not as happy as before, but a little more weird. The weirdness was like something that was once thought to be slowly being overturned by others.

Yan Sui has never been stupid, on the contrary, he is very smart. Even if Zhou Min’s words are in pieces, it is not difficult for him to put them together as long as he wants to.

But the more rationally you piece it together, the self-confidence and certainty you once had seemed to be shaken by a slap in the face.

Zhou Min threw herself into Yan Sui’s arms and held him tightly, as if grasping a life-saving piece of driftwood. She clung to him tightly, sucking out the little warmth he had, as if trying to take away all the vitality that had finally gathered in his heart.

Yan Sui’s body was stiff and his mind was confused. He felt that he already knew what Zhou Min was going to say next. He felt that he had guessed many things that he had never understood before, but why, he suddenly felt sad and desolate.

Whether it was the ugliness he was forced to accept when he was unable to resist as a child, or the bloody road to national restoration that followed, he was led step by step by fate to get here, resisting, struggling, lingering in the endless coldness and filth, looking for a trace of the freshness that only a born man can have.

Desire, the throne, those things that made the Northern Yan royal family spend everything they had to get back, are the only values ​​​​that Yan Sui has found to live, without being like a living dead, lifeless and feeble.

Zhou Min, it was you who made me feel that besides hatred, desire and the throne, there is another way to live. The warmth makes people raise their expectations and yearn for the sun of tomorrow. So, when you said, ‘Can you lend me half of your life to spend a long time with me?’, my heart was moved.

But now…

Zhou Min, to you, what is my existence?

Do you want peace of mind from me or the freedom to atone for your sins…

The gloom in Yan Sui’s eyes became deeper and deeper. Before he could question Zhou Min, Zhou Min’s voice came from his arms again, but this time, the corners of Yan Sui’s mouth were no longer smiling, and his lips were tightly pursed. Darkness surged in his eyes, and even the illusion of gentleness that he was usually accustomed to could not be sustained.

“My father kept talking and talking a lot, but I was feeling dizzy from below, but my eyes never left the wreckage. The more I listened to what my father said, the calmer and calmer my heart became. Looking at the terrifying wreckage, after the fear, my heart inexplicably felt more admiration and guilt. Missing and painful, I don’t know when my father left. When it became quiet up there, I realized that I had already burst into tears.”

Zhou Min clutched the hem of Yan Sui’s clothes tightly. He had cried too hard before. Although he had regained his breath, he was still twitching, so he didn’t notice that Yan Sui’s expression had begun to look different.

Yan Sui’s heart became more painful and ironic the more Zhou Min spoke.

That’s a sad irony of oneself.

Reason took over his heart, and he became more and more calm, calm to the point of calm. The answer that was about to come out made the coldness in his eyes more and more intense, but it was gradually suppressed by the calm.

“So you said, you saw it? How could you see it? What did you see again?” Yan Sui asked softly. His emotions could not be heard. It seemed that he was just commenting on irrelevant topics, and there was no fluctuation in his tone.

Zhou Min did not directly answer his doubts, but began to ramble on about the memories before the age of four. It was a period of regret that could not be brought back, a mistake that could not be corrected, and it was the most warm and sweet short time in the heart of the client.

“When I was a child, I had a fever, and I forgot all my memories before I was four years old. But the fright in the dry well was a blessing in disguise, which reminded me of my memories before I was four years old. Although they were messy and intermittent, they were very blurry. But as I grew older, the vague memories of my childhood gradually became clearer when I deliberately recalled them.” Zhou Min leaned in Yan Sui’s arms and looked at the mountains in the distance with blurred eyes.

“I remember that when I was a child, my mother didn’t like to get close to me. My father always fought with other husbands and servants in the harem, and I was always alone, so I developed a temperament of running around and getting into trouble. I always thought that in this way I could get the attention of my mother and my father. But… When I was young, I didn’t understand that my mother liked Zhou Yuan, and my father had a mysterious obsession with power.”

Zhou Min smiled self-deprecatingly, seeming to be laughing at his innocent and immature days as a child.

“Maybe it’s because I like to run around, and I can attract my father’s attention once or twice, but after a lot of time, I get used to it. As long as nothing happens, I can be left alone. But it is precisely because of this that once I wandered around, I came to a forbidden place that Eunuch Qin reminded me not to go. It was a very remote palace, thatThere was a big lock on the palace door. I secretly leaned on the door and looked at the white flowers and grape vines all over the yard, as well as the woman on the swing chair under the grape vine frame. I couldn’t see clearly, but it always gave me a very comfortable feeling. It was a gentleness that my mother and father didn’t have…”

“At that time, I started to run there secretly without telling everyone, looking at the woman, lying on the crack of the door, peeking secretly. Later, I was not satisfied with watching like this, and I wanted to get closer to this woman who made me feel gentle, so I walked around outside the palace and finally found a dog hole…” Zhou Min said at this time, smiling a little embarrassingly.

“The first time I got into a dog hole, even though I was small, Master Shen has been teaching me since I was a child that as a royal daughter, she must not do anything that has her status, and she must have the dignity and arrogance she deserves. However, I didn’t expect that in the end, I got into the dog hole, and I felt quite accomplished after getting in.”

Zhou Min laughed. Yan Sui still hugged Zhou Min, but his body was stiff and his mouth was bitter.

“Then what?”

Zhou Min heard Yan Sui’s fluttering words above her head and continued, “Then, I started to sneak in from the dog hole day after day, and took the initiative to talk to that woman, but she never spoke. No matter how I teased her, she just sat on the swing and stared into the distance in a daze.”

“She is really beautiful…” Zhou Min said. At this time, he raised his head and looked at Yan Sui. The recall in his eyes was so obvious. After noticing his behavior, Zhou Min lowered his head. “Although that woman’s hands and feet were always covered with iron chains, her elegance and dignity could not be concealed. Even I, who was half-informed and ignorant at that time, found it very dazzling.”

“She turned a blind eye to me at the beginning, and I was the only one chattering. In the end, she pulled me in, gently wiped the stains on my face, and looked at my helplessness when I sighed.”

“That was the first time I received such tenderness from a woman. It was as sentimental as the maternal love that I have long lacked and longed for but dared not hope for in my own mother.”