646 Chapter 645 of “The Quick-Traveling Girl Is Poised to Pounce the Male Protagonist”

My love is more real than Jiangshan’s love (83)

But it is undeniable that he was really curious about the love that the man said, and what kind of power it was that could make a person who was once high-spirited, full of ambition, and only hate the country and the family become perverted, decadent, ridiculous and pathetic.

I think about the memory of the so-called father who forced his five-year-old self to wear women’s clothes and learn to leave the woman who betrayed him. In a place like a mouse hole, while escaping from the embarrassment of hiding because of the woman’s betrayal, he pervertedly allowed himself to imitate the woman’s smile to please him and comfort his memory. I thought of all the disgusting things the man had done to him, and of the so-called mother who betrayed the man and caused the man’s family fortune to collapse for decades.

Yan Sui looked at Zhou Min and suddenly smiled strangely. He slid his fingers slowly along her face and said, “Zhou Min, do you know that your mother-in-law has a biological sister…hehehehehe. According to seniority, you should call me cousin…cousin…hehehehe.”

The sarcastic voice was filled with excitement and weirdness, mixed with the memory of the humiliation and anger in his past. Yan Sui’s whole person had a paranoid and perverted twist, and his eyes became very scary.

“I was carefully trained by that man since I was a child. He taught me step by step, and I never failed in civil and military skills. It was like I was cultivating a perfect and qualified king! Maybe I was too smart. When I was nine years old, I was familiar with the history books, art of war, and the teachings of saints. I know right from wrong, understand the carelessness, know power, plan, manage people, know how to maneuver, and observe people in detail. The man said, I am a member of the Beiyan royal family for hundreds of years.The most outstanding person among kings, the most amazing person in the world.And I understand better what the Three Cardinal Guidelines and Five Constant Rules are, and the principles of ethics.” Yan Sui said with a sneer and laughed at himself, “But when I understand everything, I understand that while he has worked hard to cultivate me, he also wants to completely destroy me!Because of his hatred for women, because of his regret for his family and country…”

Yan Sui’s suppressed laughter buried in Zhou Min revealed an unspeakable sadness, “Before the world abandoned me, I had already decided to abandon the world… Otherwise, how could I be worthy of my father’s careful cultivation of me. I… have been an eyesore from beginning to end, and maybe I should never have been born… Hate, disgust, regret, madness… Like the items and evidence that prove his failure, stupidity and reluctance…”

Yan Sui’s voice became gloomy, as if a storm was coming and was suppressed, “So, I learned more and more seriously, including that woman’s smile. When my father finally took action on me, when he completely saw me as that woman, that night, I first inserted the knife into his chest, and blood spattered all over me… And he looked at me and smiled, his smile was crazy and twisted but seemed to be complicated and nostalgic…·It seems that he is looking through me at the woman he has been madly in love with and hated his entire life.However, there is a feeling in that look that I still cannot describe… an indescribable feeling…”

“But no matter how I feel, it doesn’t matter. The important thing is… he died… as the first person I killed. From then on, at the age of ten, I became the king of the dark palace. As long as the person I want to kill is in my hands, there will be no more accidents. I… abandoned… the world. Hahahahaha…hehehehe…”

Yan Sui smiled lowly, and the darkness in his eyes was enough to overflow, but there was a kind of suppressed sadness. It seemed that he was still an ignorant child, crying desperately in the darkness, struggling for help, but in the end he was destroyed by that man’s despair.

Yan Sui suddenly looked at Zhou Min with a stunned expression, “…you…you are a woman, but you are not beautiful…”

Yan Sui’s eyes were suddenly filled with a kind of vulnerability and confusion that could not be ignored, “So, Zhou Min, you are an unattractive woman, right? So, your unattractiveness has become the reason why I always keep you alive…is that right?”

Because…are you different from beautiful women…

Yan Sui was a little dazed, but it seemed that he suddenly understood at this moment. The demonic barrier that had been confusing him for the past month finally broke through the clouds.

“Zhou Min, just be an unattractive woman. Only in this way can you live. I don’t need a beautiful woman. You are just the one you are now… maybe, maybe…”

Yan Sui was suddenly at a loss for words, and his shrewd mind could not find the right words at this moment. It went blank and he just stared blankly at the woman beneath him.

When Yan Sui leaned over and hugged Zhou Min, he felt extremely conflicted and complicated.

Why did he say this to her, why did he say this to Zhou Min who had fainted, and what did he want to express by saying this… What exactly did he want to express?Those memories that he thought he had long forgotten… why did they suddenly come out without warning…