[R18] So and so – “Someone” 92, Wasteland [English]

Jiang Tian’s seat was at the edge of the rostrum. He actually left after speaking, but it was inappropriate to turn around and leave. He was stunned to be pressed by He Jin until the next process started, and he took the opportunity to leave.

He almost ran back to Mingli Building in a big stride.Shengwang finally moved back to Class A, and the seat he had occupied for a long time was finally returned. From now on, he could see the other person’s shadow falling on his desk without looking up.

But when he ran to the top floor and stopped while holding on to the back door frame, he did not find Sheng Wang in the classroom.

The atmosphere in the classroom was very strange. The mute button was pressed on the buzzing noise from the moment he entered the door. Everyone looked up at him, but no one spoke.

Jiang Tian was stunned for a moment, then walked back to his seat and asked Gao Tianyang, “Where is Sheng Wang?”

The expressions of the people around him suddenly became strange, and even Gao Tianyang froze.Jiang Tian raised his eyes and found that Carp and Xiaojiao were hesitant to speak in front of them.

At that moment, his heart suddenly sank, as if he felt something.

“What are you looking at? I’m studying on my own!” Gao Tianyang shouted to the people around him.He threw away the untouched paper, scratched his hair a little irritably, and pulled Jiang Tian out of the classroom.

“Brother Sheng has gone to the Political and Education Office.” Gao Tianyang said.

“Why?”

“Fight.” Gao Tianyang hesitated for a moment, then added: “Because Qi Jiahao said you…”

he’s voice suddenly dropped, and the word “homosexual” was extremely vague. I always felt that saying this in person was like stabbing Jiang Tianzhi with a bloody knife.

And when he raised his eyes after he finished speaking, Jiang Tian had strode down the stairs and disappeared from sight in the blink of an eye.He only remembered that when the other party ran around the corner of the stairs, his lips were pursed tightly and his face was pale.

He almost bumped into someone on the way to the political and religious office, but Jiang Tian couldn’t remember it clearly.He All he could think about was the scene of Sheng Mingyang ducking away from the front row of the auditorium to answer the phone.He didn’t dare to imagine the connection between the two, just like he didn’t dare to imagine Sheng Wang standing alone in the office of the Political and Education Department.

And when he walked straight into the office, he only saw Xu Dazui standing by the window with a frown on his waist.

The door that was pushed open hit the wall with a bang. He opened his mouth amidst the shaking of the wooden door and said in a difficult voice: “Teacher…”

Xu Dazui turned around and looked at he with a complicated expression. He couldn’t tell whether he wanted to scold him or sigh.

Jiang Tian struggled to hold his breath and asked, “Where is Sheng Wang?”

“Let’s go.” Xu Dazui said.

For a moment, Jiang Tian frowned, seemingly unable to understand the meaning of these two words.He’s mind was buzzing, as if he was immersed in a glacier, and he felt numb with coldness.

“What’s gone?” he heard himself ask in confusion.

Xu Dazui finally sighed, “I was taken away by his father.”

“Where are you going?”

“How do I know?” Xu Dazui frowned and looked at he, “Jiang Tian…”

As soon as he finished saying these two words, he saw the boy at the door lowering his eyes.He seemed to finally be unable to hold himself any longer. He bent over and propped up his knees, breathing heavily as if he had run tens of thousands of miles.

Xu Dazui suddenly couldn’t say anything.It’s not that he has never dealt with this situation before, it’s precisely because he has encountered it that he wants to sigh even more.

There are no secrets in middle school, only rumors that spread like wildfire without knowing whether they are true or false. Even if he warns insiders, some things will still spread everywhere, even within a few minutes.

Xu Dazui saw Jiang Tian’s fingers on his knees pinched and clenched into fists, his thumbs tightly pinching the joints.

Seeing that even he felt pain, Jiang Tiancai stood up straight and asked dumbly: “Did you hit him?”

Xu Dazui was silent for a long time, and then replied: “No, I didn’t fight.”

Jiang Tian nodded and left.

Xu Dazui saw he running under the window, passing through the flower bed full of dead leaves behind the building, heading straight to Road No. 3… He didn’t know where to look.

In fact, there was a moment when Sheng Mingyang wanted to fight.The moment Sheng Wang said, “Stop checking,” everyone could see how embarrassed He, the father who kept saying “impossible,” was.He had already raised his hand, and then lowered it at the last moment, his fingers trembling like a spasm.

He stood there for a long time, and finally just suppressed his emotions and said to Xu Dazui: “Old Xu, I will take him out for a while, so I won’t take up your time.”

Even when he was furious, he didn’t drag her into a mess. Neither father nor son were like that.He just patted Sheng Wang on the shoulder and motioned for him to go out.

Before going out, he stopped again, turned around and said to Xu Dazui, who looked sad, “I’ll admit it for him. Children are not sensible, and I, as a father, am also in a mess. I have caused trouble for you.”

He bowed slightly, like those parents who are obviously successful in their careers but are humble and submissive to their teachers.

The slap obviously didn’t land, but Sheng Wang felt like he was hit hard, hurting from his face to his heart.He wanted to say “Don’t be like this”, but it was he himself who caused this scene, and he was not qualified to say this.

But is he really that wrong?He obviously… just likes someone.

At that moment, Sheng Wang felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to bend down.But in the end, he just followed Sheng Mingyang out silently.

He thought Sheng Mingyang would take him home directly. He knew that the other party needed a place without outsiders, but Sheng Mingyang didn’t.

The car drove directly onto the beltway at an extremely fast speed, completely inconsistent with Sheng Mingyang’s usual driving style.I don’t know how long it took before the emergency brake was applied. Sheng Wang was painfully strangled by the seat belt, and he hit the back of the seat heavily.

The car was parked on an unknown side road in an industrial park in the suburbs, and no one was around.This angle was right in front of the sun, and both the driver’s seat and the passenger’s seat were blinded.Sheng Mingyang reached for his sunglasses, but finally lowered his hand and pulled the handbrake impatiently.

He can’t drive anymore.

Sheng Wang’s eyes were stung by the light, but he did not close them. He just kept staring at the light spot until the world turned into a large blank, and then he heard Sheng Mingyang say: “When did it happen?”

There was anger in his voice, but it sounded muffled in the car, like dense waterweed wrapping up layer by layer and tightening little by little.

“I don’t remember.” Sheng Wang said.

These four words aroused Sheng Mingyang’s anger. He patted the steering wheel heavily: “What do you mean you don’t remember? When will you start ghosting–”

He might want to say “fooling around” or something else, but he can’t finish the sentence mid-sentence.He rubbed his eyebrows and took a few deep breaths. He was silent for a long time, and then tried his best to slow down his tone: “Tell me the truth, is it Xiaotian he——”

“No.” Sheng Wang interrupted.

At that moment he felt the huge absurdity.

he wants to say, do you know how much shadow Ji Huanyu left on Jiang Tian?Do you know how painful it is for him to be entangled in things that he should never have to endure?Do you know how long it took him to get over those things?

And you just arbitrarily and baselessly attribute all problems to him, as if he was born that way.

It’s like he can’t be sad at all.

“I chased him.” Sheng Wang said, “I liked him. I spoke first. I tried every means to seduce him. I even got thrown into class B because he didn’t respond. And because I wanted to stay with him longer, I worked hard to get back. Can’t you see how happy I am when I usually hang around him?”

Sheng Mingyang’s face was extremely ugly. Every time Sheng Wang said another word, his expression became more embarrassed.It’s as if the person being exposed is he.

He frowned, finally found a break and interrupted: “Don’t say that!”

Sheng Wang stopped talking, his expression equally ugly.After a moment, he said awkwardly: “You asked, you asked me to tell the truth.”

“Dad knows you are not this kind of person, you don’t have those problems.”

“You don’t know.” Sheng Wang said, “You don’t know. I know best. I like my brother and I am gay.”

Sheng Mingyang was still trying to reason: “I know you are a bit rebellious with these words now, just to make me angry——”

“I didn’t.” Sheng Wang lowered his eyes, “I didn’t want to make you angry. I was happy and uncomfortable at the same time for a long time.”

There was deathly silence in the car, and Sheng Mingyang felt like he had been slapped.When Sheng Wang said this, he knew that everything he just said was just trying to find a reason.He just doesn’t want to admit that his son has become like this.

Sheng Wang sat with his eyes lowered, and from the corner of his eye, He’s father’s fingers were clenching the gear selector, and his ring finger and little finger were twitching slightly, like uncontrollable tremors.If he had something handy, he might have smashed a piece if he was alone.

But he just held it for a while and said coldly: “Break it off.”

Sheng Wang raised his eyes.

“You don’t have to go back to school. I’ll call Lao Xu later.” Sheng Mingyang said, “I’ll transfer you to another school.”

“I won’t turn around,” Sheng Wang said.

“Either you go or he goes!” Sheng Mingyang finally shouted without suppressing his anger.After yelling, he started the car with trembling fingers and said without raising his eyes: “I have many ways, you can choose one yourself.”

The car sped out, Sheng Wang seemed to be pressed to death on the back of the chair, and then suddenly let go after a moment.He felt weak and nauseated while walking and stopping rapidly.

He still remembers the joke he told on the night of Jiang Tian’s birthday to make people happy, but he didn’t expect that it turned out to be a prophecy.

“Dad, did you know that the college entrance examination is about to begin?” He closed his eyes in dizziness and clenched his teeth tightly.He endured it for a moment before continuing: “Have you ever thought about the impact of transferring to another school now? Have you thought about this every time you go to complete those procedures? Have you ever thought that I might not be able to catch up? Have you ever thought that I might really not be able to adapt this time, and then plummet?”

“Have you ever thought about it yourself?” Sheng Mingyang said expressionlessly, “If you think about it more, you won’t be able to do such a ridiculous thing.”

“I don’t think it’s ridiculous.”

“You really don’t think so? Why are you afraid of being discovered if you don’t think it’s ridiculous? Why are you happy and sad at the same time if you don’t think it’s ridiculous? Why are you sad? Aren’t you supposed to be justified?”

Sheng Wang was speechless.He wanted to say that was not the case, but at that moment he suddenly couldn’t find the words to refute.It’s like walking in the dark for a long time, and even you can’t figure out the way.

Sheng Mingyang didn’t even look at he, “Now go tell everyone that you are having sex with your own brother, and see how others react!”

He was so angry that he could hardly speak at all. After speaking, he closed his eyes for a moment.The car body shook, but Sheng Wang didn’t feel alarmed, but his chest felt cold.

I don’t know how long it took before he stubbornly said: “I won’t stop.”

Sheng Mingyang held the steering wheel silently, nodded after a long time and said, “Don’t say this to me.”

Who should you tell?Sheng Wang was at a loss for a moment.

The car whizzed through the curves in the mountain forest and drove into the suburban cemetery.It was neither early nor late at this time, and the entire cemetery fell into desolation and silence. The white marble statues were covered with thick frost, and the cold made people feel numb.

Sheng Wang was dragged into the pale building, passed through rows of equally pale photos, and then stopped in front of one of them.

Sheng Mingyang pulled He, pointed at the smiling person in the photo, and said tiredly after being stuck for a long time: “Tell your mother, come on, Wangzi. You look at her and say, you want to be with your brother, you are gay, tell me!”

Jiang Tian ran to the end of Road No. 3, went out along the west gate of the school, and stopped where Sheng Mingyang parked. There had already been a different person parking there.

He turned around in a circle and hurriedly ran outside the Wutong.

Old man Ding and the mute were picking vegetables in the house. One could only sign, but the other couldn’t understand much and could only sit opposite each other in silence and boredom.

The old man spent a whole holiday at home, thinking about Jiang Ou and Ji Huanyu’s affairs all night long.That’s what it’s like when people get old, they worry about it all the time.He would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night, and sometimes he couldn’t sleep at all.Maybe it’s too cold and people have become dull due to the vicissitudes of life.

So when Jiang Tian appeared at the door, he didn’t react for a few seconds. After a long time, he said “oh”, opened his eyes and said, “Xiao Tian? Isn’t school starting today?”

Jiang Tian held on to the door frame and gasped, saying “Yeah”.It was only then that he touched his pocket and realized that he had gone to the auditorium for a meeting without his schoolbag and his cell phone was still hidden in his bag.

“Why are you running in such a hurry?” The old man turned around.

Jiang Tian lowered his head and gritted his teeth before swallowing the sour feeling.Asked the old man: “Has Sheng Wang been here?”

“No.”

As expected.

Jiang Tian nodded, but his movements were jerky and difficult.He borrowed the cell phone from the old man and called Sheng Wang.

The phone rang a few times and was picked up. He’s heart suddenly came to life, but before he could speak, he heard Gao Tianyang say over there: “Brother Tian…”

his heart hit the ground again.

“Brother Sheng’s schoolbag is in the classroom.” Gao Tianyang whispered.

Jiang Tian hung up the phone, looked through the old man’s call history and found Sheng Mingyang, and dialed again. The other party had turned off his phone.

He called the car again and rushed back to Baima Lane. There was no one in the house.Aunt Sun had cleaned it before leaving, and the smell of detergent floated throughout the house. Because the humidity had not dissipated, it was so empty that it made people feel chilly.

He searched everywhere he could and found nothing.Finally, with little hope, I ran to the rental house at the north gate of the attached middle school that I had never lived in for a day.

It was deserted inside, he knew no one was there, and he didn’t bring a key.But as he stood there, he couldn’t help but knock on the door.It seemed that if he knocked a few more times, someone would open the door from the inside and welcome him in.

Because he remembers someone saying that he would not be shut out.

But he knocked for a long time and no one came to open the door.

He has been accustomed to playing an adult-like role since he was a child, taking care of Old Man Ding, Jiang Ou, and himself.He carried everything he could carry on his back. Although it was very tiring, he always felt that he could bear it.

So much so that sometimes there is an illusion that he is not afraid of anything, can afford anything, and is omnipotent.

But when he turned 18 and truly entered adulthood, he realized that there were too many things that he couldn’t take care of.He is like a poor bricklayer, tearing down the east wall to make up for the west wall, but he is stretched to the left and right.In the end, he couldn’t even do the simplest thing of standing with Shengwang.

Only then did he realize that the connections between he and Sheng Wang were densely packed, but as thin as hair. They were all in someone else’s hands, and would be completely broken if he let go.

The city is so big, with people coming and going, and the densely packed faces around him are blurry. No matter how he runs, he can’t find the one he wants to see.