[R18] So and so – “Someone” 101, loose [English]

Sheng Wang was stunned for a moment, and the smile faded from the corners of his eyes and mouth.

Jiang Tian touched He’s cheek lightly with the milk glass.He took it and drank it, and glanced at Jiang Tian who was replying to the messages from the senior brothers in the group.

Shengwang watched for a while, then put down the glass and said to the person on the phone, “Okay, can you decide the time?”

Sheng Mingyang was waiting for he to respond. Hearing this, he smiled and said, “I’ll be there in the afternoon. I’ll be free these two days. Dad is not as busy as you now, so I have to use your time.”

Sheng Wang said, “Let’s do it tonight. When will you arrive? I’ll pick you up.”

When Jiang Tian looked over, he had already hung up the phone.

“Going to work again?”

Sheng Wang put one hand on He’s shoulder and threw the phone to the table: “Well. I just took a peek. Do you have to treat the professor to dinner today?”

The world of adults becomes more and more unstoppable when it comes to holidays.

It was snowing heavily in Beijing on New Year’s Day, and the beautiful vision of spending a day in the house was killed in the plan.Jiang Tian was called away by his senior classmates, mainly to celebrate the Gregorian New Year for the professor and gossip about his relationship with his “old classmates”.Sheng Wang went to see Sheng Mingyang.

Although the weather was not good, it was New Year’s Day after all, and everywhere was still crowded.Sheng Wang made a reservation at a foreign-style hotpot restaurant, which was not that noisy.

Sheng Mingyang took off his coat and put it on the back of the chair. He folded the sleeves of his shirt outside of his gray cashmere sweater. He glanced around and said, “Isn’t there a shopping mall and restaurant downstairs? Why do you come so far?”

“Don’t you like the wagyu here?” Sheng Wang said.

Sheng Mingyang was stunned for a moment.

He really likes the wagyu at this restaurant. I called Shengwang with a friend earlier and ate here twice.Maybe he mentioned it casually, or maybe he didn’t say it explicitly. Anyway, he had no memory of it, but he didn’t expect his son to still remember it.

This is how our father-son relationship has been over the years.Sheng Wang is very filial, very filial, and can take care of every detail, even to the point of being considerate.Just like Sheng Mingyang’s expectations and expectations for that little guy more than 20 years ago, to be outstanding and perfect.It stands to reason that he should be happy and happy, but he will always become lonely at a certain moment.

It is said that there must be a tug-of-war between father and son for the right to speak, just like male animals fighting for territory, from controlling to being controlled. Some people can argue and fight for their whole lives.

But they are different. He doesn’t like noisy noises, and Sheng Wang doesn’t like unkind fights.

Sheng Mingyang once thought that he was enlightened. He and his son each occupied half of the country, and they were peaceful and harmonious.After a long time, he realized that he had never stopped encircling the territory, but every time he circled a piece of territory, Sheng Wang would move a little to the side. He did not fight for it, but moved further and further away.

When he finally reacted, he couldn’t even see the shadow clearly.

Occasionally, he misses that fussy Wangzai. He thinks that his voice is too long and only listens to the beginning. He will randomly change the note names for he according to the content he shared.If you feel unhappy, you will just hang up on him. If you feel happy, you will call him “Old Comrade Sheng Mingyang”.

He used to have headaches, but now he can no longer enjoy them.

Sometimes when he is extremely bored, he will want to ask under the influence of alcohol: “Are you taking revenge on your father?”

But he knew that was not the case, because Sheng Wang was soft-hearted and could not have done it on purpose.Just because it was not intentional, Sheng Mingyang felt even more depressed and uncomfortable.

This trip to Beijing is actually not that necessary. He can come or not.But when he was washing his face before going to bed yesterday, he took a look in the mirror and found that he actually had white hair on his temples, not just one or two, as if they had grown overnight.

He stood in front of the mirror for a while, brushing his hair, and suddenly wanted to see his son and have a good meal with Sheng Wang on the first day of the new year.

Maybe it’s because he is older. Rather than having a successful career and living a decent life, he would rather hear Sheng Wang say in the tone of a teenager: “Comrade Sheng Mingyang, you have gray hair.”

However, when he raised his head, he only saw Sheng Wang closing the menu and smiling at the waiter, turning around and asking, “Dad, do you want a drink?”

It would be false to say that he is not disappointed. Sheng Mingyang was silent for a moment, waved his hand and said: “No, water will do. I have seen several people who have gout recently, so I have to be more restrained.”

If it were Sheng Wang when he was a child, he would definitely say, “It will be too late when you are lame.”Now he just nodded and said: “It’s not about socializing, so drink less.”

The waiter brought the fish maw pot base and two dipping plates.Sheng Mingyang took a sip of water and started another topic with a smile: “I went to Hangzhou a while ago and had a meal with Xiao Peng. He even complained to me, saying that you were busy day and night, and it would be difficult to catch you.”

Xiao Peng’s full name in Sheng Mingyang’s mouth is Peng Xie, and his WeChat name is Ba Jiao Crab. He has been in and out of contact with Sheng Wang for so many years.He studied at university in Guangzhou, Shengwang visited him twice, and he also came to Beijing.After graduation, each of us became very busy, so it was very difficult for us to meet and chat with each other.

Crab has a good family background. After graduation, he couldn’t stand the control after working in class for two months. He borrowed some start-up capital from his father, quit his job and went to make money in the sea.Because he is loyal and can drink and talk, he actually gets along well.

There was a time when Sheng Mingyang’s business encountered a setback, and he wanted to find someone to smooth things over, so he went round and round to his son. What Sheng Wang wanted was a crab.

After a string of exchanges, Sheng Mingyang took the initiative to move up a generation and became business partners with Crab.

“It’s not bad.” Sheng Wang mixed the sauce and handed the empty plate to the waiter, “He was so excited when he became a father last time. Didn’t I chat with him until three in the morning?”

Sheng Mingyang laughed and flipped through some photos on his phone and showed them to Sheng Wang: “Have you seen that kid? I saw him that day. He has pretty features and pretty eyes.”

“It’s only been a few months now that you can tell that you have a clear face and beautiful features?” Sheng Wang said angrily, “Back then you said that Director Xu of the Political and Education Department was decent-looking.”

Sheng Mingyang reacted for a moment before remembering who Director Xu was, and then he was stunned.

Over the years, when we and our father and son met and chatted, they rarely mentioned the people and things in the attached middle school.It was like a forbidden area. If he mentioned it, it would most likely end in silence. Sheng Mingyang didn’t like asking for trouble.

This was the first time Shengwang mentioned it proactively, and still in a joking tone.Sheng Mingyang felt inexplicably sore in his heart, like a rock that had been pried for a long time and finally showed signs of loosening. He, the father, was almost a little moved.

The thick golden soup of fish maw chicken was simmering in the pot. The waiter blanched the wagyu beef for them and put it into their plates.Sheng Mingyang lowered his head in the steaming heat. Because he ate in a hurry, the tip of his tongue was burned.

He took a few sips of water and wanted to continue the topic and atmosphere, so he caught the crab and dug into it.Talk about how he got married as soon as he graduated, talk about how the IOU between he and his dad was finally paid off this year, and talk about how his family of three have grown faces and are all very lucky.He’s parents have been doing nothing recently. They hang around their granddaughter every day, asking for stars but not the moon.

The conversation got into a minefield accidentally when the interest was high.

Sheng Mingyang said: “Whenever you can get me a gadget, dad can wash his hands in a golden basin and enjoy family happiness.”

He just said something in a hurry. After saying it, I felt it was not appropriate. When I saw Sheng Wang paused with his chopsticks, I felt a little regretful.But since the waiter was still scalding the meat for them, he slowly breathed a sigh of relief – there were still outsiders here, so Sheng hoped not to say anything too harsh.

Sheng Wang only paused for a moment and then continued to dip the ingredients.After finishing that sip, he drank another drink of water, then put down the cup and said, “This may not work. How about I get you a cat, or bring one back later. If you want a grandson or granddaughter, it’s up to you.”

Sheng Mingyang had just picked up a piece of beef with chopsticks and stopped when he heard this.He hung his chopsticks for a few seconds and then laughed softly: “Okay, you are still young. I know people of your age are like this. If you ask, you won’t have it. If you ask again, you won’t want it. Let’s not talk about it now. Later -”

Sheng Wang interrupted he, but his tone was very calm: “This may be the case in the future.”

Sheng Mingyang raised his eyes and was about to open his mouth when Sheng Wang said again: “Jiang Tian has returned to China.”

Silence spread between father and son for a moment.Sheng Mingyang finally lost his appetite and put down his chopsticks.He glanced at the waiter. The waiter finished blanching the last piece of meat without squinting, put it on the plate, said “use it slowly” and walked away in a sensible manner.

At that moment, time seemed to flow back to that day several years ago.They also sat in the car in silence until one of them took the initiative to speak.

It was Sheng Mingyang at first, and Sheng Wang this time.

He said: “As for what happened a few days ago, he returned to China to work on a project, and we met at a dinner party.”

There was no expression on Sheng Mingyang’s face. He frowned and answered after a long time: “What next?”

“When you called me this morning, I was at he’s place.” Sheng Wang paused for a while and said calmly: “I still like him, and I still plan to be with him.”

Sheng Mingyang’s fingers on the table twitched.

For a moment, he thought, it would be nice if we were not in a restaurant like this, if there weren’t so many people around… But then he realized, so what?Sheng Wang is no longer the boy who just pulls him away.

Then, another kind of knowledge surged up from underneath like a rising tide.he finally understood why Sheng Wang smiled the moment he answered the phone, and finally understood why the rocks began to loosen.

It’s ridiculous. As a father, he is anxiously looking forward to this day and at the same time wants to push these things back.he wants the result, not the cause.

But this is not up to him to have the final say. He can only choose to accept it completely or crush it completely.

Sheng Mingyang stared at a certain point on the table for a long time, took a deep breath, and then raised his eyes and said, “What if I still have the same attitude as before.”

“It’s normal.” Sheng Wang said, “If you said change, I would be surprised. But what I want to say is different from before.”

“You said at that time, let me tell everyone that I like men and see what other people’s reactions are.” Sheng Wang smiled slightly and said, “You haven’t been here in the past few years, so you may not know. I have told many people, and I dare to say it as long as someone asks. The conclusion is quite strange. No one pointed at me and said whether you are crazy.”

Sheng Mingyang couldn’t help but said: “Those are outsiders, of course outsiders don’t care about you!”

“So outsiders don’t care, what are the family worried about? Are they worried that I will be called ridiculous or perverted? This logic is very strange, don’t you think?” Sheng Wang stopped laughing and said a little helplessly, “Dad, apart from you, I have never heard anyone say that to me again.”

Sheng Mingyang fell silent for a moment.

After a long time, he held the cup and said in a deep voice: “That was in person, how do you know that they didn’t tell anyone behind their back?”

“There are so many people on the street, and there are countless things they say behind their backs every day. This person is smooth, that person is dull, this person is too tall, that person is too short, this person is awesome and shiny, and that person is useless. They just say behind my back that I like men. Is it any different from what I just said? Who will not be told?”

Sheng Mingyang was speechless.

Sheng Wang looked at he and said: “At that time, you asked me why I was sad if I didn’t feel ridiculous. What else could be the reason, dad?”

Of course Sheng Mingyang knew why, but he secretly changed the concept when questioning.He told Jiang Tian that “Sheng Wang is soft-hearted”, so how could he not know why his son was sad.

The world is like a huge cycle.In order to make him happy, Sheng Wang has never been happy in the past few years.Now it was He’s turn to be cautious, just wanting to get Sheng Wang to smile.

Sheng Wang said: “I dare to go to the cemetery now, and I dare to tell my mother that I like Jiang Tian and I want to be with him. I think my mother will not scold me, and may even say Happy New Year to me.”

he was silent for a long time, raised his eyes and said to Sheng Mingyang: “Will you say this to me?”

For a moment, Sheng Mingyang almost spoke.But maybe he had been silent for too long, and his tongue was rusty. He felt sour in his heart, but he couldn’t say those four words.

Sheng Wang is not forced, he has the dignity and mellowness of an adult, and is as soft-hearted as when he was a teenager.

They finished the meal in almost silence. Sheng Wang wanted to drive him back, but Sheng Mingyang said that the road was slippery in the snow, so he didn’t have to go back and forth.

Maybe this is what father and son are like. They are unable to say what they want to hear, and there is always a lot of useless nagging.In the end, Sheng Wang called a special car for him.

When Sheng Mingyang got in the car, Sheng Wang stood outside the car window and held the door for him. Before leaving, he said to him: “Dad, Happy New Year.”

These words made he feel intensely uncomfortable in his heart.

Sheng Wang stood in the bright yellow light in front of the store for a while, until the car disappeared into the stream of taillights that connected the long street.The snow stopped all afternoon, and now it started to fall all over the sky again.Sheng Wang pulled up his scarf and was about to walk to the parking lot when he saw a familiar figure coming down from the overpass holding an umbrella.

Just like when he was a boy, that man likes to open his front and look tall, thin and deserted in the northern night.The hem of his coat was blown up by the wind, and snow foam hit it, leaving little traces of wetness.

He walked along the steps to the front of the store, swept the snow off his front and said to Shengwang, “I don’t want to hold an umbrella. How can I feel good about getting wet?”

Sheng Wang’s eyebrows, which had been stiff all night, finally relaxed.He shook the keys in his hand and said, “I’m driving.”

“Why are you here?” Sheng Wang walked side by side to the car with he.

Jiang Tian pointed to the business district opposite: “I happened to be eating there, and I came here when I saw you talking about bungalow hot pot.”

“Thankfully I stood there for a while, otherwise you would have chased my car?” Sheng Wang said.

“Am I crazy chasing a car in the snow?” Jiang Tian said calmly.

“It seems to have deep feelings.”

“Forget it.”

Sheng Wang’s free hand silently stretched out a middle finger. Before he could straighten it, Brother He pressed it back accurately.

“How was the work chat?” Jiang Tian asked.

Sheng Wang sat in the driver’s seat and fastened his seat belt.He started the car, swept away the thin layer of snow on the windshield, merged into the traffic on the street, and then said: “Actually, it’s not work. My dad asked me to eat, and I went out with him again.”

Jiang Tian almost had a psychological shadow about “Sheng Mingyang looking for Sheng Wang alone”, and when he heard this, he immediately frowned and looked over.

Sheng Wangxin said, otherwise I should step on the accelerator first and then speak. He raised a hand to block Jiang Tian’s eyes and said, “I’m driving. Accidents are easy to happen in snowy weather. Don’t disturb me with your eyes.”

“Then you lied to me about work?”

“I know I was wrong, so I am confessing and being lenient.” Sheng Wang argued.

Jiang Tian glanced at He’s expression and thought to himself, “Who are you coaxing? You know nothing.”

“The main reason I went there alone was to reason with the old comrades. The two of us were just demonstrating. Why shouldn’t we stir up trouble?” Sheng Wang looked at the traffic ahead with a smile, and after a moment he said seriously: “Don’t worry, it won’t be like that time.”

After a long time, Jiang Tian slowly relaxed and said solemnly: “Yes.”

Sheng Wang said: “My dad seems to be a little relieved.”