[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Chapter 80 [English]

Hatred 2000 words (welfare chapter)

After getting in the car, Sheng Jin pretended to be sleepy and closed her eyes to sleep, just to avoid accidentally leaking something while chatting with Mu Shiyan.

Mu Shiyan drove the car, and his peripheral vision swept over her peaceful sleeping face from time to time. After arriving at the apartment, he got out of the car and answered a phone call. When he came back, his face became even darker.

“What’s wrong?” Sheng Jin asked him: “What happened?”

“It’s nothing. Grandma is sick and asked me to go back to Beicheng.” Mu Shiyan raised his hand and touched her face. “I will go back to Beicheng first. I may have to stay there for a week. Take care of yourself and be safe while I am not in Paris.”

“Well, don’t worry and go back to Beicheng. I will take care of myself.” Sheng Jin didn’t dare to look directly into He’s eyes and turned away.

Mu Shiyan carried the thermos bucket and took the elevator upstairs with her. When they arrived at the door, they did not go in. “Go to bed early. I still have work to deal with.”

“Oh.” He took the thermos bucket, “Then go and do your work.”

Mu Shiyan did not leave immediately. He stood at the door and stared at her. He raised her chin with a calm face and said, “Don’t you want a farewell kiss?”

“…”

Sheng Jin’s whole body tensed up as her cool thin lips pressed against hers. Because of the nervousness, no matter how ambiguous the kiss was, she was not in the mood.

After finishing, he pursed his lower lip and clenched his fists with his hands that had nowhere to rest. “Drive slowly on the road, don’t drive so fast.”

“Your little mouth finally knows you care about me.” Mu Shiyan moved his fingers to her lips, rubbed her lower lip with his thumb, and called her name: “Sheng Jin.”

“…” Sheng Jin raised his head and looked at him in confusion.

“Remember, even if you want my life one day, I, Mu Shiyan, will give it to you right away without blinking an eye.”

Sheng Jin’s heart suddenly skipped a beat. Did he discover something?

Pretending to be calm, he opened his mouth and bit He’s finger, “How could I kill you? You’ve been so good to me, and I can’t bear to let you go.”

Mu Shiyan didn’t respond. He stared at her for a moment and then turned around and left.

For some reason, Sheng Jin regretted helping Liang Mochen copy those materials at this moment. Her behavior was tantamount to a thief, and to Mu Shiyan… it was tantamount to betraying him.

In fact, she knew very well that she could have asked Mu Shiyan for mercy like she had done to help Fu Yu, and there was no need to resort to stealing.

The reason for choosing this method is simple: hate.

I hate myself for being indecisive, falling into his tenderness again and again, and I hate him even more for forgetting me.

Some hatred cannot be overturned because of his amnesia.

He had humiliated herself and abused her again and again, which made it difficult for her to let go.

Sheng Jin admitted that she was very hypocritical. On the one hand, she loved this man very much and coveted the pleasure and tenderness he gave her. On the other hand, she hated him very much. The combination of love and hate made her lose herself and had no sense of autonomy.

She knew very well that she only looked strong on the outside, but inside she was still as unable to withstand the slightest blow and hurt as before.

Hearing Song Qing’an’s words, she would feel jealous. She was jealous that even though her mayor’s father had fallen, she was still Mu Shiyan’s fiancée, deeply respected and liked by the Mu family.

Even if Mu Shiyan had scandals with Yu Yan and Fang Ruo at the same time, it would not shake her status in the Mu family.

But after all, she is still the woman who can only live in the darkness and cannot see the light.

Mu Shiyan said that he could give her his own life, but what she wanted was never his life. What she wanted was to be able to leave the darkness and be with him in an upright and fair way.

He has lost his memory, but it can be seen in some behaviors. He will not let the relationship between the two be exposed.

He married Song Qingan more than a month later, what about himself?She will become his shady lover and the mistress that everyone shouts about.

When he regains his memory one day, he will face hell again…

Knowing that the most unacceptable thing for Mu Shiyan was betrayal, Sheng Jin took the risk and resorted to betrayal.

Betraying him makes him bored, and at the same time, it also lets him know that there is some hatred… and it cannot be erased because of his amnesia and current confession.

…

That night, Sheng Jin came to Liang Mochen’s residence and gave the flash drive to him, “It contains all the information you want.”

“Thank you, Xiaojin.” Liang Mochen took the flash drive and showed a guilty look, “I can actually save Jun Yue without this method. I have a life-saving grace for Shi Yan. As long as I open my mouth, he will definitely let me go.”

“Brother Mo Chen, I know what you want this information for.” Sheng Jin’s eyes didn’t waver at all, and she pierced the window paper, “You want to use these information to expel Mu from the European and American markets. Without Mu, Grand Hyatt Group can regain its dominance in the European and American markets.”

“Xiaojin, you…” It turns out she knew everything.

Liang Mochen did not argue anymore and nodded, “Yes, I did deceive you.”

“Not only did you deceive me this time, but the case of Mu Shiyan you gave me last time was also false. Mu Shiyan did not split into a second personality. He just simply forgot about me and did not suffer from schizophrenia.”

The lie was exposed. Liang Mochen pondered for a moment and decided to tell her the whole truth, “I know that with your intelligence, you will discover these truths sooner or later. Even knowing that you will discover these, I still deceived you. I’m sorry, Xiaojin, I betrayed your trust in me.”

he laughed at himself, “Actually, I am just a villain. In order to get you, I made up lies one after another at all costs. I am not worthy of being a big brother. It was me who first dealt with Shi Yan regardless of brotherhood. In order to fight back, he attacked the Grand Hyatt Group. All of this… I deserve it.”

Return the flash drive to her, “Take it back.”

“Brother Mo Chen, no matter what you want to do, I will support you.” He handed the flash drive to He again, “I’m not doing this for you, I’m doing it for myself.”

Liang Mochen was a little surprised.

“I want him to have nothing, completely become an ordinary person, lose all power, and then experience what it feels like to be humiliated. He… and the humiliation his Mu family has done to me back then, I want to pay back all! I want him to know that he will not always be the king, and I, Sheng Jin, cannot always be their slave.”

The Sheng Jin in front of him was unfamiliar, but also angry.

She released all the hatred that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time and no longer hid it.

“I always wanted to be a good person in the past, but after going through so much, I discovered that good people will only be bullied by others. Instead of being kind, it is better to be a bad person. Even if you are cast aside after death, at least you will live a free and unrestrained life.” Sheng Jin and Liang Mochen looked at each other, “I will no longer be as worried and hung up as before. I will hate when I hate you. I will not add love. If I can bring down the Mu family this time, I am willing to give everything.”