[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Chapter 74 [English]

Only done it with her?2000 words

There was a self-mocking smile in Mu Shiyan’s dark eyes. After seeing the uncertainty in Sheng Jin’s eyes, he reluctantly took back his hand.”Every time I communicate with you normally, you have this expression. You only react to me when I fuck you. You should be glad that I have lost the memory of you, otherwise, I will definitely tie you up and fuck you hard like you said.”

“You can tie me up now. I can’t go anywhere on the plane. I can’t escape if you want to.”

“What I want is that you are willing to let me tie you up.” Mu Shiyan stared at her, “and you are willing to let me fuck you, instead of pretending to cater to her.”

“Do you think I was pretending to cater to you last time?”

“The body is very real, but here… I’m not sure if it’s real.” He took her hand and pressed it on the left side of his heart. “I don’t know if you are real or not, but I know that I am sincere to you. That night, I really wanted to make you feel comfortable.”

Sheng Jin felt that she could not continue chatting with him, as the result would be that she would definitely fall into his tenderness.

She could no longer tell whether the man in front of her was a split second personality, or whether he was Mu Shiyan himself. “I think we should not talk about this yet.”

The plane suddenly bumped, and Sheng Jin’s body swayed. Mu Shiyan quickly took her hand and hugged her into his arms, “Don’t be afraid, I’m here.”

He’s voice seemed to have magic power. Being held by He like this, the fear in my heart gradually faded away.

However, when the fear faded, Sheng Jin felt particularly disgusted with herself.

He actually lusted after the warmth that Mu Shiyan brought to him again and again.

Could it be that I was really stuck in mud and couldn’t hold myself up to the wall?Are you going to live under this man for the rest of your life?

He is very kind to himself now, but if one day he regains his memory and remembers that her legitimate defense led to the tragedy of his mother’s death, he will definitely hate himself extremely.

Not only did he hate her, he also hated himself for falling in love with the murderer who “killed” his mother.

Regardless of whether the medical case presented by Liang Mochen was true or false, Sheng Jin knew very well that Mu Shiyan hated herself because of this in the past.

…

In order not to make the same mistake again, Sheng Jin pushed Mu Shiyan away without hesitation, gritted her teeth and endured the jolt caused by the airflow. It was not until the plane slowly stabilized that she gradually relaxed.

Seeing such stubborn Sheng Jin, Mu Shiyan stared at her intently and pointed to his forehead: “I have lost all memories about you here.”

Then he pointed to his heart, “But the feeling I have for you here has never changed. Sheng Jin, I’m sure I loved you very much before I forgot you, otherwise I wouldn’t dream about you every night.”

Hearing the word “love”, Sheng Jin was almost out of breath. “No, you didn’t love me before. You hated me. You hated me so much that you dreamed of me every night.”

“I can clearly distinguish between hate and love.” Mu Shiyan gritted his teeth, “I’m not so stupid that I can’t even distinguish between hate and love.”

“What you love is your fiancée Song Qing’an. You told me personally that you love her. Because you love her, you want to get engaged to her and want to marry her.”

“If I love Song Qing’an, how come my body doesn’t react at all when facing her!”

“…” What?

Sheng Jin couldn’t believe what she heard, “No reaction?”

“I have no memory of having sex with any woman, except you Sheng Jin. I only have the memory of having sex with you in my dreams.” Mu Shiyan laughed at himself: “Believe it or not, having sex with you that night was the first time I had sex in real life in my memory. I have always had sex with you in my dreams before, and I can’t even see your face clearly!”

“Perhaps in your eyes, I am just a stud who can be in heat at any time, and can have physical relations with any woman casually, but what you see in your eyes is not entirely true. I have never done anything with other women, and I, Mu Shiyan, have not fallen to the level of telling such lies to deceive you.”

Looking at her affectionately, “Whether you believe it or not, what I said is the truth.”

…

Sheng Jin suffered from insomnia and was half lying on the bed, with Mu Shiyan’s words echoing in her ears.

Only done it with her?

Before that, he was studying in Switzerland. What happened to the woman’s gasping sound that he heard when he called him?What the woman called was clearly his name.

Sheng Jin tugged at the corner of his lower lip, his eyes were extremely mocking. Maybe when he was hypnotized by a psychiatrist, those memories were erased. Otherwise, how could he not remember it?

Do you really think that by becoming gentler, you can reverse the rubbish things he did in the past?

Unless she is really out of her mind, she will be moved by his love words.

At nine o’clock the next night, the plane arrived in Paris.Sheng Jin took the suitcase and walked out. While waiting for a taxi, a black Maybach drove slowly in front of her, the door opened, and Mu Shiyan stepped out.

Obviously, he wants her to take his car.

Sheng Jin ignored he and pushed his suitcase towards another waiting point. After taking just two steps, the suitcase was snatched away by Mu Shiyan.

“Give me back the suitcase!” I chased after him and watched as he put the suitcase into the trunk. “I think what I said last night was very clear. When you told me personally about the woman you loved, Song Qing’an! It was Song Qing’an you loved! Not me! Listen clearly! Not me!”

Mu Shiyan didn’t even pay attention to her, opened the door and got into the car.

Sheng Jin went to open the trunk and found that it had been locked by he. He couldn’t get out, so he had to get in the car.

After arriving at the apartment, I thought that Liang Mochen stayed here all night. Although it was just acting and nothing happened, he, who has a mysophobia, was still very concerned, “I will replace all these furniture tomorrow.”

Sheng Jin opened the suitcase and put the clothes in the cabinet, ignoring him at all.

Seeing that she didn’t respond, he walked over and took her hand, “Follow me.”

“Why should I go with you!” Sheng Jin was really annoyed and shook off He’s hand. “Mu Shiyan, if you continue to interfere in my life like this, I will never act with Liang Mochen and film it for you next time. I will definitely broadcast it live to you!”

“How dare you!”

“Then see if I dare!”

…

In the end, Mu Shiyan gave in. He sat in the car and smoked a cigarette, looking upstairs to the 11th floor where the lights were still on. Thinking of the woman’s determined eyes, he knew that she was being pushed and that she might really dare to do this.

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The next day Sheng Jin went to the studio, and she, who couldn’t drive, was waiting for a taxi at the door as usual, but the black Maybach drove up to her again last night.

“Get in the car.” Mu Shiyan, who was in the driver’s seat, rolled down the window and looked a little tired.

Could it be that he didn’t leave last night?But slept in the car all night?