[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Chapter 61 [English]

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The Mu Shiyan in the past was domineering and decisive. Sheng Jin often said that he was like an ancient tyrant.

But now Mu Shiyan has long learned to hide his true emotions. Even if he hears words that make him angry, he can still remain a gentleman. He rarely takes off his glasses when seeing him. Even if he teased him like that at the HK hotel that night, he always wears glasses, neither angry nor angry.

Liang Mochen saw the way Sheng Jin looked at Mu Shiyan and knew that she still couldn’t let go. He held her hand and rubbed her warm palm with his fingertips. He leaned down and lowered his head in her ear: “You are not feeling well tonight, shall we go back early?”

“…” Sheng Jin wanted to refuse, but the man on the stage was too dazzling and would always cast his eyes on him involuntarily, “I’ll say goodbye to Jesse later.”

When saying goodbye to Jesse, he glanced at Mu Shiyan who was surrounded by everyone, and his eyes happened to collide with his. He quickly looked back, “I’m feeling a little unwell tonight, so I’ll go back to Jesse first. I’ll invite you and Henry to have dinner with him another day.”

Jesse hugged her and reminded Liang Mochen next to her in French, “Take care of this beautiful woman, otherwise there will be a lot of men trying to rob you.”

She’s words are also equivalent to a warning. After all, there is no airtight wall, and a few people still know that he has a wife outside.

…

On the way back, Liang Mochen’s cell phone rang from time to time, but he refused to answer it.

Sheng Jin, who was sitting next to he, already understood something and felt it was time to break through the window. “Brother Mo Chen, don’t worry about me. I know everything. You should just take it.”

Liang Mochen frowned, feeling like he was being caught. He wanted to explain, “Xiaojin, I…”

“It’s okay, Brother Mo Chen. I’ve known for a long time that you have women outside, more than one.” She smiled faintly and comforted: “You should have your own life, and you don’t have to revolve around me all the time. After all… I have always ignored your feelings. You are a man, and men all have sexual needs. I can’t give it to you, and I can’t stop it. Women won’t give it to you either…”

“Xiao Jin…” Liang Mochen interrupted her, “You have been refusing to accept me in the past few years. Is it because you have long discovered that I have a woman outside? You mind very much? Don’t you?”

“…” Sheng Jin was silent, not knowing how to answer. She was trying to organize her words and how to answer without hurting his male self-esteem.

But Liang Mochen regarded her reaction as minding, approached her, and held her hand, “Xiaojin, she and I only have sex but no love. You are the only one in my heart from beginning to end. As long as you mind, I can sever all relations with them.”

“Brother Mo Chen.” Now that things have happened, Sheng Jin feels the need to make it clear to him, “You know that I can’t give you anything, but I can’t get over this hurdle in my heart. This hurdle has always been Mu Shiyan. You have always been a brother to me. I really can’t have a relationship with my brother. I hope you can understand me.”

Hearing her rejection again, Liang Mochen let go of her hand, his eyes darkening, “Xiaojin, I have never forced you to do anything in the past few years, and I have always respected your choice. While you let me understand you, can you also understand me? I love you, and it’s not to make you accept me. I just want to love you and be good to you, that’s all.”

“But Brother Mo Chen, you have wasted too much time and energy on me.”

“It’s not a waste to me.”

Sheng Jin didn’t give up halfway through the conversation like before. This time, she decided to follow her heart, “But I think it’s a waste.”

…

Sheng Jin moved out of Liang Mochen’s residence and moved into an apartment close to his studio. It had one bedroom and one living room, only about 40 square meters. It was warm and independent.

The conversation with Liang Mochen that night ended on bad terms. He got off the car and left early, only asking the driver to take her back.

After thinking about it all night, I felt that I should move out and could not delay this man any longer.

After tidying up the apartment, Sheng Jin went to the supermarket and bought some ingredients and daily necessities. Because there were a lot of them, it was difficult for one person to carry them, and she regretted buying so much.

Just as she gritted her teeth and resisted the pain in her palms and stood on the side of the road waiting for a taxi, a black Maybach drove in front of her. The man in the driver’s seat opened the door and got out, snatching the heavy shopping bag from her hand.

“You…” Sheng Jin didn’t expect to meet Mu Shiyan again. She watched helplessly as all her things were thrown into the trunk by this man before she realized, “Mr. Mu? What are you doing?”

Mu Shiyan opened the passenger door and said, “Get in.”

“Why do you ask me to get in your car?”

It’s a big deal and I don’t want it anymore!

When I saw a taxi approaching, I quickly walked over and held out my hand to signal to stop.

As soon as he stretched out his hand, Mu Shiyan grabbed it.

Sheng Jin was forced into the car.

She was silent along the way, but she noticed that Mu Shiyan actually drove to the downstairs of her apartment.

“Why did I move here?” Sheng Jin was surprised, “Are you following me?”