[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Chapter 33 [English]

Engagement Banquet (2) Extra for over 800 pearls

“What about you?” Liang Mochen stared at her, his eyes tightly locked on her face, not letting go of any change in her expression, “Aren’t you ready to tell Shi Yan the truth?”

“Why should I tell him? It doesn’t matter to him whether the truth is true or not. Even if he knows the truth, nothing will change. Besides, I have already let go.”

“Put it down?”

“Yes, I don’t want to live the same life again. I want to live for myself.” Without any concealment, he told he the current situation, “I have divorced Fu Yu, but I haven’t made it public. I will leave Beicheng when Mu Shiyan and Song Qing’an’s engagement party is over.”

Liang Mochen was not surprised because he had been waiting for her to say this for many years and only asked her: “Where are you going?”

“I don’t know, I haven’t chosen a place yet. In short, the farther away from Beicheng, the better.”

“Do you like France?”

“France?” Sheng Jin was a little surprised. After reacting, her confusion immediately turned to excitement, “Brother Mo Chen, you mean… you want me to go to France with you?”

“As long as you want, I can arrange it for you.” In order to prevent her from refusing, Liang Mochen also added: “Don’t you want to live for yourself? If you like fashion design, France is the most suitable country for you. After arriving in Paris, you can learn a lot.”

She really likes fashion design, but her mother Ruan Chengxiang did not let her learn it, saying that it is a virtue for a woman to have no talent. Even in college, she was sent to a private aristocratic school so that she could meet more wealthy young masters. Just after graduating from college, she was forced to marry Fu Yu.

Thinking back on my life in the past 24 years, I have been living for my mother and that man, but I have never worked hard for myself. I always feel that fate determines everything, and I have no ability to compete with fate. I am cowardly and hesitant, making my life worse than a dog.

Sheng Jin thought that instead of staying in Beicheng as a dog, it would be better to give up everything and try to fight against fate.

Liang Mochen did not let her answer immediately, “I will stay in Beicheng for half a month when I come back this time. Contact me after I think about it.”

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In the VIP presidential suite on the 67th floor, Mu Shiyan, in a suit and leather tie, stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, holding a nearly burned out cigarette between his slender fingers, looking at the LOGO of the tallest Mu Building not far away with a dead look in his eyes. He had obviously gained everything, but his heart was still empty.

This feeling was so oppressive that he almost couldn’t breathe. He pulled off the tie he had just tied and put out the cigarette butt in the ashtray. All that came to his mind was Sheng Jin’s face with tears in his smile and even a sarcastic expression that night.

Sheng Jin’s smile would appear in he’s dream every night. In the dream, she smiled, took a knife and stabbed herself in the heart, “Mu Shiyan, now that I’m dead, can you let me go?”

The fabric around her heart was smeared with blood in a short while, but she still smiled and said with a smile: “It’s great, I can finally get rid of you.”

Why do you have such a dream!Why!

Mu Shiyan has been waiting for Sheng Jin and Fu Yu to take the initiative to beg him these days. He knows Fu’s financial situation. He has been losing money every day these days. It is impossible for a snobbish man like Fu Yu not to express his anger with Sheng Jin.

But so far, not to mention Sheng Jin, even Fu Yu has made no move.

Lu Zixu and Gu Yi pushed the door open and came in, “Second brother, the banquet is about to start, we should go down.”

Mu Shiyan picked up his tie and regained his usual cold expression, “Let’s go.”