[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Bites Me (Painful, compromising, giving in.) [English]

Chance?

Sheng Jin couldn’t help but laugh sarcastically, “How did you ever give me a chance in the past?”

“Now that you realize that you can’t control me, you start to be courteous to me. Do you think that setting off fireworks for me will make me willing to be your dog again?”

“No one wants you to be a dog!” Mu Shiyan was angry, “I will marry you! As long as you are willing, I will marry you now!”

“Then kneel down! Get down on your knees and beg me! Beg me and I will marry you!”

“Sheng Jin! Don’t push yourself too far!” Mu Shiyan’s eyes were already red. Except for her… no one dared to make such a request!

“I have to push myself to the limit? Why should I marry you when you say you want to? You have asked me to kneel down for you many times in the past. I only asked you to kneel down for me once, and you have this attitude, haha, Mu Shiyan? You are really a double standard dog!”

Without stopping for a moment, Sheng Jin opened the door and left the room. While waiting for the elevator, Sheng Jin was still angry. The elevator door opened, and as soon as she walked in, she was fished out by a man.

Mu Shiyan threw her back into the room with a cold face. His tall body blocked all her sight, “You really want to become the master?”

“Yes, I said we can get back together, but only if I become your master! You become my slave!”

The man’s chin was pinched hard, and he could feel his anger at this moment. Sheng Jin met his gaze without fear, “It’s not fair, isn’t it? I have been your slave for four years, and I only let you be my slave once, and you are so unwilling.”

“You can take my life, but you can never become a slave!”

“I don’t want your life, I want you to be a slave for once!”

“Sheng Jin, you are really a bitch!” After throwing her away, Mu Shiyan roared: “Get out! Get out of here right away!”

“I can get out, but please remember, don’t hang out in front of me when you have nothing to do! And don’t play an affectionate role to prevent me from getting engaged to Liang Mochen! I, Sheng Jin, have nothing to do with you, Mu Shiyan, you have no right to control me!”

…

After leaving the room this time, Sheng Jin’s eyes became moist. When she walked into the elevator, the elevator door slowly closed and tears flowed out unconsciously.

After leaving the HK Hotel, I happened to meet Fu Yu who had just finished talking to a client.

“Sheng Jin?”

Seeing Sheng Jin, Fu Yu immediately walked over and saw the pinch marks and hickeys on her neck, as well as her red and swollen eyes. He didn’t need to think about it to know what she had just experienced.

“Where are you going? I’ll take you there.”

Sheng Jin declined he’s kindness, “It doesn’t matter, I can just do it myself, no need to bother you.”

I can feel that there are eyeliners all around me, and I don’t want to cause any more trouble for him.

She had never seen how perverted Mu Shiyan was.

But Fu Yu insisted on giving it away, “It doesn’t matter, I’m just giving you a ride. Even if Mr. Mu knew about it, he wouldn’t be angry with Mrs. Fu because of this.”

Sheng Jin got in the car and started the car. When he drove to the corner, he saw the black Audi Q7 following through the rearview mirror, and he caught up again.

Just now I told her to get lost, now I’m going to catch up with her!It’s not a pervert, it’s nothing!

Fu Yu also saw the man in the driver’s seat of the car behind him, so he simply pulled over and said, “If you have anything to say, tell Mr. Mu slowly. He looks cold on the surface, but he is warm inside. He is a good person. You two are just too stubborn in temper. Neither of you is willing to bow your head, otherwise you wouldn’t have taken so many detours.”

“Mr. Mu even postponed the wedding for you, and even set off fireworks to show your goodwill tonight. Mayor Lin Sen was in charge of directing it. If he didn’t have you in his heart, how would he do this with such fanfare?”

Are the fireworks directed by Mayor Lin Sen?

Sheng Jin’s eyes were moist, as if there was a mist lingering in front of his eyes. He got out of the car and Fu Yu’s car drove away slowly.

The black Audi Q7 drove over, and Mu Shiyan in the driver’s seat stared at her intently. The two looked at each other, and each other’s hearts instantly softened.

Mu Shiyan opened the door and got out of the car, walking towards Sheng Jin who was standing on the roadside.

Seeing he getting closer and closer, Sheng Jin’s eyes became blurry and she pursed her lips with tears in her eyes.

Mu Shiyan walked up to her, suddenly knelt down on one knee, took out a silver-gray box from his pocket, and opened it. Inside was a diamond ring with a flame pattern. “It was originally a good plan. I wanted to put it on you when setting off the fireworks, but I didn’t know what happened and I messed it up again.”

“I don’t know what’s going on with me. No matter how difficult things are in the company, I won’t get angry. Every time I deal with emergencies calmly, I never make a mistake.”

“But when it’s your turn, I just want to pretend that I have no patience and will get angry at you and say harsh words to you. Even though I feel pain in my heart, I still can’t control it.”

“I regretted it after you left just now. I chased you down. You were already in Fu Yu’s car. I was so angry that I almost hit his car, but I know that if I did that, you would never forgive me.”

“Sheng Jin, I’m not saying this to explain my behavior. I just want to tell you that I will work hard to change my bad temper. I will let you see my changes, but please also give me a chance and give me a chance to pursue you again, okay?”

Seeing that the once proud man was willing to bow his head and admit his mistake, Sheng Jin was not moved at all. Tears welled up in his heart, not wanting to have any more disputes with him. “Mu Shiyan, if you had done this to me three years ago, I would have returned to you without hesitation. Even if you would marry Song Qing’an as your wife, I would have been your shady mistress without any complaints.”

“I spent three years ago forgetting you and driving you out of my world. I was in pain, cried countless times late at night, and kept drawing pictures to divert my attention, just so I could stop loving you!”

“I finally stopped loving you, but you suddenly appeared in front of me and asked me to give you another chance to accept you again.”

“What if I fall in love with you again, and one day I get tired of being played by you, but you throw me away like a rag?”

She shook her head and rejected He’s ring, “I can’t afford to gamble. I am already 28 years old, not 18. There is no more ten years for me to gamble. I am tired of love, really tired.”

“Why don’t we just maintain the status quo? I will continue to give it to you when you want it. I just ask you not to let me love you anymore!”

His body seemed to be empty, and he squatted down weakly, holding his head and crying, “Why can’t you let me go, why do you always force me to love you! Why!”

Mu Shiyan took back the ring and put it back in his pocket. At this moment, he understood that it was because he had hurt her so deeply in the past that she had no trust in him. He opened his arms to hold her in his arms, and opened his coat, wrapping her tightly. “Okay, I promise you, I won’t force you to love me. I love you. Is that okay?”

Sheng Jin didn’t answer, he buried his head in his chest, choking and sobbing.

Not wanting to see her cry, he carried her back to the car, held her face in his hands, and kissed away her salty tears. When he saw her biting her lip to hold back her cry, he put his hand on her mouth, “Don’t bite yourself, bite me.”

(Author’s note: Why Mr. Mu married Song Qing’an will be explained later, so don’t worry.)