[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” 141 Good and Evil (Gu Yuewei) [English]

Gu Yuewei decided to have a showdown with Lin Sen. She had been hurt too much and she could no longer love anyone. If she only talked about sex, then she could not care less about this man’s past or his relationship with the female teacher.

Lin Sen finished the call and returned to the room. When he saw the clear look in the woman’s eyes on the bed, he already had a premonition of what she would say next.

“I know Gu Yi has been here.” He said first, cutting off her random thoughts, “My own past is really not that clean compared to his. I won’t defend myself, and I can’t promise what kind of future I will give you, because I know very well that I am a person without a future.”

Gu Yuewei didn’t understand what was too profound, and she didn’t like the boss to be crooked, “What do you want to express?”

“There are too many people who want to kill me. If I survive today, there may not be a tomorrow, so I like to live in the present.”

“I’m the exact opposite of you. I don’t like the unknown, nor do I like a life of fear all day long. I yearn for stability.” Gu Yuewei looked at him, pursed her lips slightly, and smiled with relief, “Obviously, we are not suitable.”

He had already anticipated the outcome, knew what kind of life she longed for, and knew that she couldn’t give it to her at all. “I won’t let go. You provoked me first.”

She lit a cigarette and half-leaned against the sliding door. Her loose gray shirt was half-open. There were obvious scratches on her collarbone. They were scratched by Gu Yuewei’s nails when she was in love last night. There were also traces on her back, which were almost bloody. She’s physical performance last night could not deceive he, “I know you have feelings for me, not just for sex.”

“But it’s not love yet. I can’t love anyone.”

“You don’t have to love me, just enjoy being loved by me.” He smiled lazily and a little self-deprecatingly, “I am a desperado and I don’t deserve anyone’s love.”

Gu Yuewei’s heart ached a little. When she thought of the scars all over his body, it was hard to imagine what he had gone through in the past. Was it not to protect herself if she yearned for supreme power?If you don’t have rights, wouldn’t you be like an ant and be trampled to death by the enemy?

His past may not be clean, but he is all about living. If he loses his life just to be clean, what’s the point of being clean?

Good and evil are just a matter of thought. If kindness can save one’s life and protect the one he loves, then who would want to be a villain?

She cannot judge from the highest moral point what this man should do and what he should not do. If one day her life is threatened, in order to survive… there is no telling what evil she will do.

“What if I want to love?” The tip of my nose felt a little sore, and the fear of losing and longing for a long-term pure love became stronger and stronger. “Will you live desperately for me?”

Almost at this moment, Lin Sen, who had always been able to control himself, lost control. He threw away the cigarette and stamped it out. He strode to the bedside, held her face in his hands, lowered his head and kissed her lips, occupying every part of her mouth domineeringly.

The base of her tongue hurt from being sucked by him. Gu Yuewei lowered her hands to her sides and let him kiss and caress her, because she could feel… this man’s hands were trembling.

The kiss went from deep to shallow, and in the end, it developed into a dragonfly. Lin Sen kissed her red and swollen lips, his deep eyes flashed with excitement, and when they met each other, he felt the expectation in her eyes. His heart seemed to be warmed, and he could no longer pretend to be calm. “Don’t love me. If you fall in love with a man like me, you will be very tired.”

(Suddenly I remembered a sentence: There are no absolutely good people or absolutely bad people in this world. Excluding those who are mentally ill and deformed, among normal people, who would want to be a bad person?

Why doesn’t Lin Sen not want to be a good person?)