[R18] Paradox [siblings] – “Paradox [Sister and Brother]” [Extra] Ten Years Today (Part 1) [English]

At that time, I still lived in the courtyard of the government agency and the bungalow assigned by the work unit.

The bungalows are close together in the old city, and the old alleys are full of fireworks.

The sun was setting in the west, and a few dusky crows were making noisy noises in the trees.

“You’re so annoying.” The seven-year-old girl was wearing a maroon top, a pair of cartoon pants with a little yellow duck on it, and her two pigtails were messy. She was walking in front of her, stomping her feet on the ground angrily as she walked. From time to time, she turned back and glared viciously at the fat little guy behind her.

The little fat man’s feet were wearing squeaky children’s shoes that squeaked with his footsteps.These shoes were very popular this year, and Ling Sinan had always wanted a pair, but unfortunately she was already past that age – she comforted herself like this.

“Sister~Sister~Wait for Yuanyuan——” The little fat man raised a chubby little arm and stretched it out to the girl, while the other hand pulled his beloved toy car.

“I’ve told you, don’t follow me when I go out in the future. Don’t follow me. Mom will blame me again if she sees her.” Ling Sinan put his hands on his hips and then put one hand in front of him to prevent his brother from getting closer: “Why are you like a follower? It’s so annoying.”

The little fat man’s forehead was pressed by Ling Sinan’s hand. Of course, that little hand was not as long as her sister’s arm. He pulled it forward twice and did not touch the corner of his sister’s clothes. His mouth shrank, and he burst into tears with a sad face: “Wow wow wow – sister doesn’t want Yuanyuan anymore… sister hates Yuanyuan…”

Aunt Chen at the entrance of the alley happened to be pouring sour water into the ditch next to her. Yuanyuan’s cry attracted her attention. She couldn’t help but laugh and said: “Nannan, stop bullying your brother. You will be scolded by your mother again later.”

“He always likes to pester me.” Aunt Chen usually takes good care of her, so Ling Sinan is naturally not wary of her. She speaks straightforwardly in childish words: “My parents have given all the good things they have to my brother, and he still hangs around me every day, so that I can’t even go out to play…”

“Maybe my brother just wants you, and you have to give in to me as my sister.” Aunt Li said casually. After all, there is nothing wrong with that child Yuanyuan. Both parents are busy at home, and the fact that my brother likes to follow his sister can be regarded as a blood relationship.

“You’re still letting him? All the delicious food and clothing in the house belong to him. Which one of me has stolen from him?”

Even if you try to rob it, you can’t rob it.

Whatever he wants, he just opens his mouth and comes.

So she hates him even more.

Aunt Li comforted her for a few words and then hurried back to cook.

The little fat boy was about to cry in front of her. Ling Sinan thought for a while, and when he went home later, he should not let his parents see him going back with a pair of swollen eyes – otherwise he would be the one who would suffer.

She gritted her teeth, forced herself to put aside the unhappiness in her heart, and squatted down: “Why are you crying? I’m still in front of you.”

Yuanyuan looked at her with sobs and cried until she hiccupped: “Sister, sister wants… to be with… Yuanyuan…”

So ugly.

Ling Sinan thought to herself, in fact, this is a biased evaluation, and she knows it herself.

My younger brother, Ling Qingyuan, is only 5 years old. He still has some baby fat, his face is white and tender, his lips are red and his teeth are white. He is not as good-looking as the little boys in TV commercials.When we say “he” as a little fat boy, he is actually a child who is cute and naive. If he were not favored because of “he”, Ling Sinan might like this younger brother very much.

Seeing him crying, Ling Sinan glanced to the side, saw a small flower, and picked it off casually: “Yuanyuan, look, look~” She rubbed the flower stems in her hands, and the white daisies were spinning in her hands, like bamboo dragonflies about to fly.

Yuan Yuan stopped crying, his eyes fell on the flowers, he blinked and stared at them in concentration, and gradually started to laugh.

It was so easy to coax, Ling Sinan was quite proud, so he handed the flower to his younger brother: “Here, do you want it?”

Yuanyuan seemed to like the flowers sent by her sister very much. She smiled when she picked them up and held the stem tightly without letting go.

Ling Sinan thought that it was done now and he could go back after resting for a while. Unexpectedly, Yuan Yuan suddenly raised his hand and put the flower in the braid next to her ear.

Then she smiled innocently: “Sister, she’s pretty~”

Ling Sinan blushed immediately after being praised.

My younger brother is quite discerning.

Speaking of which… even though he would always ask for anything, Yuanyuan would not hesitate to share it with her every time he got something good.

It’s just that she doesn’t like this feeling, as if she’s holding something left over from someone else, so she never paid attention to it.

She thought about it, she’d better not be too bad to her brother.

Although he is very annoying, it is because of him that she feels that at least someone in this family cares about her.

Just as she was about to speak, a voice suddenly sounded behind her that made her shiver——

“Nan Nan, where did you take your brother to?!”

Ling Sinan’s crouched body turned around, and under the shadow of the backlight was his mother’s angry face.

She suddenly felt that her feet were numb and she couldn’t stand up at all.

The mother was holding a bamboo strip in her hand. She had gone out to look for her. She patted her on the back and said, “I told you not to go out. Not only did you sneak out, but you also took your brother away! Look how your brother is crying?!”

Of course, the seven-year-old Ling Sinan didn’t understand what resistance meant. She held her head and hid in a corner: “I didn’t take my brother away – I didn’t -” On the contrary, after she went out, she found Yuanyuan following her secretly, which made her unable to go anywhere, so she came back with her brother.

But the bamboo strips still had no eyes, and they slapped her again and again: “I made you disobedient—made you disobedient—and led your younger brother to evil—”

Ling Sinan cried, and the sound of crying penetrated the old alley. Some of the neighbors who couldn’t stand it came over to comfort him. Yuan Yuan cried even worse than Ling Sinan.

Qiu Shanhua’s beating wasn’t too hard, but he just refused to stop. Ling Sinan was pulled by the arm and spun around in a circle, trying to run away but unable to do so, and his slippers flew out.

As a result, when another bamboo strip came down, it suddenly hit a smaller figure.

“Woah woah woah -” was followed by Yuanyuan’s earth-shattering cry.

Upon hearing the sound, Qiu Shanhua hurriedly threw away the bamboo strips, hugged her and coaxed her heartbrokenly: “Oh Yuanyuan, why did you rush over here? It’s because of your mother’s fault. Did it hurt or was it red…”

Yuanyuan cried miserably, but did not forget to reach out and slap her mother: “Don’t hit your sister! Bad mother – don’t hit your sister!”

Ling Sinan choked with sobs and cried so hard that her hair in her braids came out messily. She stood aside with a slipper that she couldn’t fall off, watching her mother comfort her brother in shock.

Tears are worthless here.

She knows everything.

But… what did she do wrong?

She also wants a mother.

Then the next winter, the second uncle said he would take her away and asked her if she wanted to.

She agreed without thinking.

She wants to leave this home, she wants to leave this home that does not belong to her.

The younger brother is chasing after her like a follower again.

Ling Sinan listened to the patter of footsteps behind him, sighed like a little adult, and turned around.

“You’re going home soon.” Why did Zhang Ma let her brother chase her out of the yard?

The child’s intuition seemed to be unusually sensitive, and he held on to his sister’s cotton coat and asked, “Where is sister going?”

“I want…” Ling Sinan thought for a long time and didn’t know what to say, “Just… go out for a while.”

“Sister, can you please take me there…” The six-year-old Yuanyuan has become much more sensible and will not beg for nothing. She raised her pretty face and asked, “I will be very good. Can you please take me there?”

Turning his head to look at his second uncle who was waiting for her at the entrance of the alley, Ling Sinan hesitated for a moment, then bent down and hugged the younger brother whom he seemed to have never really loved –

“Yuanyuan is good, sister will be back soon.”

She walked out of the alley step by step, towards the sky that finally belonged to her.

When I looked back, I saw that little figure squatting there holding a toy car, alone and alone.

She clenched her fists, but still looked away. The wind blowing from outside the alley blew away her last trace of nostalgia.

“…sister.”

“Come back quickly.”

She didn’t hear that voice after all.