[R18] Paradox [siblings] – “Paradox [Sister and Brother]” Extra: From Now On (Part 2) [English]

After she digested the content of the text message, Ling Qingyuan happened to be walking over from the corner of her eye.

By some strange coincidence, she put the phone back in its place in a hurry.

“Going home.” Ling Qingyuan didn’t notice anything unusual about her. He picked up something and raised his chin slightly to indicate to her.

Ling Sinan didn’t know why she didn’t remind he about this text message. The two people who hadn’t seen each other for a long time had endless words to say along the way. When the car stopped in the parking lot of the community and Qingyuan went to the trunk to get the luggage, she suddenly remembered this incident again.She didn’t find anything in the front seat of the car, so she got into the back seat and searched again, and finally found the keychain of a big-eyed doll under the seat. It looked like it belonged to a relatively young girl.

“Nannan?” Ling Qingyuan held the suitcase, turned his head, and narrowed his eyes slightly at her, “What are you doing?”

It’s not personal and intimate, and the title will naturally not emphasize the relationship between sister and brother. Moreover, Ling Qingyuan always feels that calling her “Nan Nan” sounds older.

Ling Sinan held the keychain in his hand, walked quickly to he, and took his arm.

“No, no, go home.” Ling Qingyuan didn’t take it to heart as he dragged him home in three steps.

Speaking of this home, I really miss it.

When Ling Sinan was an intern, he relied on his professional ability to get an internship at the provincial TV station. After graduation, the intern became a full-time employee and stayed, and the provincial TV station happened to be in Qinghe City.In recent years, Qinghe City has been listed as a pilot city for the Internet of Things industry by the country. Its economic development has been obvious to all, and it is the place where she was born and raised. Ling Sinan has never thought of leaving.But at that time, because of his published research papers and innovative ideas, Ling Qingyuan had a bright future after getting a doctorate in the United States. He was favored by many excellent research institutes and government agencies, and some even directly handed over offers. Ling Sinan once thought that this would be the beginning of the relationship between the two siblings.

Just like the reason why she originally supported Yuanyuan to study at Harvard in the United States, love is not the only thing, and the job in provincial Taiwan is the first step for her to realize her dream. She does not want to give up – with her qualifications at the time, she would not be able to get such a good opportunity even if she went to the United States.

She knows that Yuanyuan cares about her, otherwise the two of them will continue to make do with each other across the ocean. Maybe after a period of time, love will be unable to withstand the power of time and dissipate. By then, who will care whether the city you are in has clear skies or heavy rain?

To be honest, she almost relented. After all, no one in this world was more important to her than “Ling Qingyuan”.But he is a little unwilling to do so. Although he can support him to study abroad, he cannot accept his decision to work in his hometown. When lovers start to care about who pays more, conflicts arise.

They had a fight that night.

She still remembers sitting next to the sofa in her apartment with her knees in her arms, crying all night in front of the disconnected video.

“Just divide it, divide it…” She wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes while sobbing, but she was just stubborn and duplicitous. She pressed the voice message on WeChat to vent: “Ling Qingyuan, you will only be a younger brother in this life!”

Then?

Then that day she walked out of the TV station after get off work with swollen eyelids——

he turned around.

Called her.

elder sister.

A gust of wind carried the sound of “he” to my ears. It was neither high-pitched nor low-pitched. It was warm and cool, like water, flowing softly.

When she was still in a daze, the voice, together with her arms, contained her.

He lowered his head and hugged her, a large dog’s soft embrace, turning into the most intimate cuddle between birds.

She stood motionless, tears immediately rolled down his sleeves, and she just repeated that sentence again in a daze…

“Ling Qingyuan, you, in this life… you are just a younger brother…”

“Yes, even if it is…”

She smiled bitterly when she heard him.

“…It’s only yours.”

Hold her tight again.

“Don’t leave me, sister.”

A long sigh.

“I’ll be back, wait for me.”

Half a year later, Ling Qingyuan came back to fulfill his promise.

What she didn’t expect was that he entered the Chinese Academy of Sciences and was said to have joined a well-known professor’s research team in Shanghai.

The two of them really settled in Qinghe City, and the place they settled was the apartment where she had been living.

I don’t have any relatives, and I don’t like anyone destroying the tranquility of their world, so an apartment with such a good location is a little too small, and there is nothing to change. It also carries many memories shared by the two of them.

Due to work, we spend less time together and more distance, but this time the distance is no longer a Pacific Ocean, which makes people satisfied.

——How long is the shelf life of love?

Until these days, this issue has once again been brought to the forefront from the bottom of her heart.

For several weeks, Ling Qingyuan didn’t ask her about the keychain, which made her a little strange. If it was really about the keychain, it was impossible for the girl not to ask a second time. And since she had asked, Yuanyuan should also ask her casually – at least he saw her rummaging around in the back row that day, right?Not only did she not ask anything, but one day when she looked at his phone again, she couldn’t even find the text message.

The worst thing is…that might not be the “worst”.

“Auntie, do you think men can be trusted?”

The hot and bright red soup was bubbling at the bottom of the pot, and Ling Sinan drunkenly asked the words that had been bothering him for a long time.

Ling Jing, who is in her forties, still has the same smart short hair as always. Except for a few subtle lines at the end of her eyes, it is difficult to tell that she is a woman who is about to reach her fifties. Jane next to her is a little older. After all, Westerners always age quickly, but this does not affect the relationship between the two in the slightest.

After hearing her question, Ling Jing and Jane looked at each other subconsciously, and then Ling Jing smiled and said, “Nan Nan, who would you like to ask this question to?”

Jane was very familiar with Chinese, and after getting along with Ling Jing for a long time, she even acquired a bit of a southern accent. She asked gently: “Did Yuanyuan treat you badly?” Her tone was full of concern.

Ling Sinan looked down at the beer in the cup, “No, it’s just…”

When Qingyuan was at home recently, she noticed that he often watched some parent-child programs and mentioned topics related to children. Once when she was cleaning the room, she also noticed that he had genetic research materials on his desk.

She knew that he was still in the preliminary preparations for his most important research project, so she temporarily accepted a teaching commission from an old professor, but he didn’t teach biology… All of his classmates and friends around him had children, and the daily social media posts about their babies made Ling Sinan feel more in danger.

He said that if he had to choose between children and her, he would rather not have children.

I was so moved. He who said those words was only 16 years old at that time.

What if… he regrets it now?

One night after turning off the lights, Ling Qingyuan rested his arms on his arms, opened his eyes and thought for a long time.

“Nannan.”

He’s even breathing was particularly clear in her ears, giving her an inexplicable fear, as if she would face the torture of life next.

But she still mustered up the courage: “Huh?”

“Am I a good father?”

…

…

“Man, haha.” Ling Jing sneered, “In order to achieve their goals, those animals tell lies that even they themselves don’t believe, but women do.” At the end of the sentence, Jane held her down with disapproval and winked.

Ling Jing followed her and looked at Ling Sinan’s dim eyes across from her, patted the back of Jane’s hand to reassure her, and continued quietly: “It’s just that Yuanyuan is different.”

Ling Sinan raised his eyes and looked at Ling Jing through the white steam of the hot pot.

“You know better than me how persistent he is. Every decision he makes is the result of careful consideration, and he will never wrong himself, because he knows very well what he wants from himself.”

Right.

Ling Sinan fell into deep thought again, just like when her little aunt told her at the birthday party more than ten years ago…

[Don’t you know, when he was thirteen years old…]

Ling Qingyuan was still in junior high school at that time.

Children in adolescence are ignorant. There are many who start falling in love at this age, and Ling Qingyuan’s class is no exception.

With his conditions, he was naturally loved by the little girls, and the English subject representative at the same table was one of them.

The girl’s conditions are not bad in all aspects, but since her confession was rejected, her personality has become a little… twisted.

At first, he just cried for no reason, his grades plummeted, and later he even followed him home.

One day after school, there was no one else in the classroom. The girl took the opportunity to hug Ling Qingyuan, who had just returned. The next moment, he didn’t know what he said, and seemed to reach out to pull her hair, causing the girl to break down and cry. This scene happened to be seen from a distance by the class teacher, who called both parents.

Surprisingly, the girl put everything on him.

In the story she confessed, Ling Qingyuan said that he liked her but dumped her, which made her fall into despair.When Ling Miao learned that his son did not study hard but fell in love early and caused trouble, he was furious after returning home and whipped him and forced him to be locked up for more than half a year.From beginning to end, Ling Qingyuan remained silent.A few days later, the girl threatened Ling Qingyuan with self-mutilation and threatened to apologize. Her parents always felt sorry for their daughter and felt that the boy was mostly at fault when it came to premature love at this age. In addition, the Ling family was afraid of causing trouble for the sake of their social reputation and wanted their son to apologize as soon as possible and put an end to this farce.

However, when he returned to school again, Ling Qingyuan was scolded by the girl’s parents. Everyone was waiting for the moment when he said sorry, but he stepped forward and said three other words to the girl lightly——

“You don’t deserve it.”

She originally wanted to see the superior Ling Qingyuan admit defeat, but the unexpected development made the girl forget to shed tears, which were still in her eyes.

Immediately afterwards, Ling Qingyuan took out the notes she had confessed to him from her schoolbag, and the photos of him, all of which were placed in front of everyone, and every time he took out one, it was like a slap on the face of both parents.

No matter how harsh the scolding was, it would be embarrassing.

From that day on, Ling Qingyuan was truly liberated in front of his parents.

From that day on, he gradually transformed into the top student who was both obedient and obedient.

He will never wrong himself, he knows clearly what he wants.

Even if you hold back until the last moment, just in exchange for reciprocal benefits.

In fact, my aunt didn’t tell the whole story at the time. Later one day, Ling Sinan couldn’t bear her curiosity and asked “he——”

“What did you say in the classroom before that made that child cry?”

Ling Qingyuan was leaning on the sofa, with the folder on the pillow and the information page propped up high on his legs. Hearing the sound, he turned to glance at her. After two seconds, he received a stubborn signal from his sister and turned away: “You are not worthy.”

“Huh? Ling Qingyuan, do you want to die?”

“…I told her, ‘You don’t deserve it.'”

Ling Sinan was confused: “What does ‘is it worthy’? Is it worthy of you?”

Ling Qingyuan raised his eyes, frowning slightly as if he recalled something.

“There’s a little box in the third drawer on the right side of my desk.”

Ling Sinan rushed to find it.

The box is not exquisite, but it is well kept. When opened, there is a very simple and simple flower hairpin.

Brought by children.

“I used it as a bookmark before that.”

Ling Sinan rubbed the hairpin and turned around. Qingyuan was standing behind her, his eyes falling on the hairpin in her hand.

“The girl took it upon herself to wear it and asked me if it looked good.”

“I said, you don’t deserve it.”

Ling Sinan laughed out loud: “Why do you, a boy, use a hairpin to make a bookmark? This hairpin is so ugly.”

Ling Qingyuan hesitated for a moment, then helplessly held up half of his face.

“Are you used to being poor like me? You don’t even let yourself go?” A low voice came from under the palm of his hand.

“What?”

“That’s what you wore before, idiot.”