[R18] It turns out you all want to have sex with me – “So You All Want to Fuck Me” Chapter 324 [English]

311. Hidden diseases

“What does Miss Gu like to drink? The black tea I brewed is very good. Do you want to try it?” After Gao Yuan left, Abbott seemed to see the fatigue on Gu Pan’s face and directly asked her to sit down on the sofa.

“Okay, thank you.” Gu Pan really didn’t want to go out again.

So the old man made a pot of black tea and dug out some cream cookies from somewhere. The two of them sat face to face on the sofa and started drinking afternoon tea.

“Are you Chinese?” The corners of the old man’s eyes are filled with fine lines left by the years. When he smiles, the wrinkles will deepen and he looks more friendly. “Do I need to slow down my speech a little more?”

“No need… this is already good.” Gu Pan didn’t expect that Abbott had deliberately slowed down his speech for his own sake, and he felt more favorable towards this careful old man, “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome, kid.” He picked up the tea cup and took a sip.

“Are you also a doctor here?” Because the room was deep in the infirmary, Gu Pan naturally thought so.

“No, I am he’s psychiatrist.” The old man put down his tea cup, “But I have been fired now.”

Psychiatrist?

Only then did Gu Pan vaguely remember that when he first lived with Gao Yuan under the same roof, he had indeed seen Gao Yuan… looking strange.

But Gao Yuan’s situation has been stable since then, so Gu Pan forgot about this matter over time.

“Gao Yuan…does he have any mental illness?”

Recalling the beast-like man at that time, Gu Pan was quite frightened at that time, but now he felt a little more distressed.

“Actually, many people who are mercenaries have this problem…”

The smile on the old man’s face faded.

“Do you know about PTSD?”

Gu Pan shook his head in confusion.

“It’s post-traumatic stress disorder, because they all act in a group, and it’s common for their companions to die around them.” Abbott’s expression became serious, “Many newcomers are hindered by this disease.”

Although the old man tried his best to explain, the large number of professional terms made Gu Pan confused. In the end, he quietly took out his mobile phone and searched on Baidu while the old man was going to the toilet before he finally understood.

But after reading the explanation, Gu Pan felt even more sorry for Gao Yuan.

Of course she still remembers the scars all over the man’s body, each one symbolizing real danger.

Gu Pan is not afraid that Gao Yuan will get sick again because she believes that Gao Yuan will not hurt herself. She is just worried about the negative impact this disease will have on Gao Yuan.

When Abbott came back, he saw Gu Pan looking at his phone with a heavy face.

“Child, did my words scare you? I’m sorry.” The old man said softly: “It’s much better now. Although I can’t exactly explain the reason for this improvement, you don’t have to worry too much.”

Gu Pan raised his head and smiled at the old man: “Thank you, but I also want to ask, when did he have this problem?”

The matter seemed to go back a long time. The old man thought for a while before speaking, “It should have appeared when he first went on a mission with the previous leader… I remember he was sixteen years old at that time.”

Sixteen years old…

Gu Pan thought about how when he was sixteen, he was still crying in his room because he didn’t eat the pig’s trotters made by his mother at night. However, Gao Yuan had already experienced the life and death of his companions at the age of sixteen…

In the evening, Gao Yuan returned to the room.

As soon as he opened the door, he saw Gu Pan sitting alone without turning on the light.

“What’s wrong?” Gao Yuan turned on the light and saw two rabbits with red eyes.

In fact, Gu Pan’s mood had already stabilized. She thought that when Gao Yuan came back, she would not expose the fact that she had cried. However, she did not expect that her nose felt a little sore the moment she heard Gao Yuan’s voice.

“What unnecessary words did Abbott say to you again?” Gao Yuan’s face darkened.

“No…” Gu Pan shook his head, tears still welling up in his eyes but not flowing out, “Obviously you promised to tell me everything, but you never said anything…”

Seeing Gu Pan’s aggrieved look, Gao Yuan probably guessed what the old man said, sighed softly, and walked over helplessly.

“I rarely get sick now, why do I still say it to make you cry?”

“I didn’t mean to cry!” Gu Pan quickly wiped his tears, refusing to admit that the more he thought about it, the more he felt sorry for Gao Yuan. “The wind outside blew a lot of sand… My eyes hurt…”

However, even Gu Pan himself became less and less confident the more he told this kind of lie.

“Really? Let me take a look.” Gao Yuan knelt down, raised his hand and touched his tears.

Gu Pan quickly turned his face to the other side for fear of being exposed.

“Hey…” The man sighed, but his eyes always had a soft smile, “Don’t you want to know why I got better?”

…Of course I do.

Gu Pan immediately turned around and asked, “Will you tell me?”

To be honest, it’s a bit hard for Gao Yuan to say this, but things have reached this point, so it doesn’t hurt to say it.

“It’s because of you.”

The man spoke in a low voice, his eyes directly meeting Gu Pan’s surprised eyes.

Every time Gao Yuan’s mind began to replay those images of broken limbs and broken arms, the girl’s painful look when he was forcefully penetrated would also appear.

At that moment, Gaoyuan’s reason will suppress those restless nerves, allowing him to regain his sense little by little.

Gradually, the more I get along with Gu Pan, the less bloody things appear. Until now, I haven’t recalled them for several months.

But it was a bit difficult for Gao Yuan to explain it so clearly.

So he had no choice but to reach out and brush away the tears on Gu Pan’s face, and summed it up succinctly: “Sometimes when I’m emotionally unstable, it’s good to just think of you.”

Gu Pan sniffed, “Then you had this problem so early. How did you get here so many years ago?”

The man frowned, “Just lock yourself in the room and don’t come into contact with other people.”

As he spoke, Gao Yuan pointed to the few pieces of furniture in the room, “So there aren’t any breakables here, and the corners have been smoothed, because I’m afraid I might hurt myself when I can’t control myself.”

After hearing Gao Yuan’s words, Gu Pan couldn’t stop crying.

Just thinking of the sixteen-year-old Xiao Gaoyuan suffocating himself in the room, trembling with cold sweat, Gu Pan’s heart was almost broken.

She stretched out her hands and hugged Gao Yuan’s neck, sobbing, and her whole chest trembled.

“Is it really better now?”

“Really.”

“How can you be sure…”

“Anyway, it’ll be fine if you’re around.”

“Then what if I’m not here…”

Gao Yuan’s eyes darkened, and his strong arms tightly hugged the little guy’s waist.

“That’s not possible.”

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In fact, someone seems to have guessed Gao Yuan’s illness.

But to be honest, my friends, if you want to watch any extras, click on them as soon as possible. You won’t be able to click on them once you’ve written them.

The more detailed the better, maybe it will come true.