[R18] Erha and he’s white cat master – “Erha and He’s White Cat Master” Chapter 59 [English]

Chapter 59 I only have so much potential

There was no other way, even if the younger brother was a sneeze, he still had to set off. Yu Min led them all the way east to the port of the Yangtze River, summoned a self-navigating ship, escorted it with a barrier, and released it on the sea.

This night, Mo Ran got rid of his master for the first time and got along with him outside. But strangely, he didn’t seem to be as excited as expected.

Both Xue Meng and Xia Si Ni were already asleep, and Mo Ran was lying alone on the deck, with his arms behind his head, looking at the stars in the sky.

Shi Mei came out of the cabin, took some dried fish he bought from the fishermen, and sat next to Mo Ran. The two of them gnawed on small dried fish and chatted.

“Ah Ran, if we go to Peach Blossom Spring, we may not be able to go to Lingshan to discuss swordsmanship in time. I don’t care, but you and the young master are both very powerful people. Don’t you regret that you missed the opportunity to show your talents?”

Mo Ran turned his head and smiled: “What’s the point? Fame is all false. I went to Peach Blossom Spring to learn skills and can protect important people. That is more important than anything else.”

The teacher’s eyes were full of light and he said gently: “If you think so, the master will be very happy if he knows about it.”

“What about you? Are you happy?”

“Of course I’m happy too.”

The waves crashed against the boat, and the canoes bounced on the sea.

Mo Ran lay on his side and looked at Shi Mei for a while, wanting to tease a few words, but didn’t know how to speak.In he’s eyes, Shi Mo is really unattainable and pure.

Perhaps because it is too pure, the lustful thoughts that arise when facing Chu Wanning are not easily possessed when facing the teacher.

The ink burned for a while.

Shi Mo noticed that he was looking at him, so he turned his head, brushed his long hair that was messed up by the sea breeze behind his ears, and smiled slightly: “What’s wrong?”

Mo Ran’s face turned red and he turned around and said: “It’s nothing.”

He originally wanted to take advantage of this opportunity to cautiously confess to his teacher.But the words came to my lips several times, but I couldn’t speak.

Confess.

Then what?

Facing such a clean, gentle and gentle person, Mo Ran couldn’t be rude or strong. He was afraid of being rejected. Even if he was accepted, he was afraid of not knowing how to get along with the teacher.

After all, in his previous life, he handled the short-lived relationship with Shi Mo really badly… Except for that intimacy in the ghost master’s fantasy world, he never even kissed anyone.

Not to mention that after what he has experienced in this life, he is not sure whether the person in the illusion is Chu Wanning or Shi Mo.

Shi Mo still smiled: “But you seem to really have something to say to me.”

Mo Ran’s heart felt hot, and for a moment it seemed that he wanted to pierce this layer of window paper recklessly.

But for some reason, a white figure suddenly flashed before my eyes. He had a clear face, didn’t like to smile very much, and always walked alone, looking very lonely.

Suddenly my throat seemed to be blocked and I could no longer speak.

Mo Ran turned his head and stared at the starry night sky.

After a while, he said silently: “Teacher, you are really important to me.”

“Yeah. I know, you do the same to me.”

Mo Ran said again: “Do you know? I had a nightmare before, and in the dream you…you are no longer here, I am very sad.”

The teacher smiled: “You are quite stupid.”

Mo Ran: “…I will protect you.”

“Okay, then I’d like to thank my good junior brother first.”

Mo Ran’s heart moved and he couldn’t help but said: “I…”

The teacher asked softly: “What else do you want to say?”

The sound of the waves seemed so loud and the boat bumped.The teacher looked at him quietly, as if waiting for him to say the last words.

But Mo Ran closed his eyes: “Nothing. It’s cold at night, so go back to the cabin and sleep.”

“…” Shi Mo was quiet for a while and asked, “What about you?”

Mo Ran is really stupid sometimes: “I… look at the stars and blow in the wind.”

The teacher didn’t move. After a while, he smiled and said, “Okay, I’ll leave then. You should rest early.”

Turned around.

Qiang and oars are traveling in the sea, the sky is high and the clouds are wide.

The guy lying on the deck had no idea what he had missed. In fact, he was just a little absent-minded. He had been trying to dig out the true emotions deep in his heart. He thought about it for a long time, because he was too weak. When the sky turned white, he still couldn’t figure out the reason.

He got along with Shi Mei day and night, and their relationship was deep. Mo Ran thought that when the two were alone, he would be impatient to confess to Shi Mei, but when the boat arrived at the bridge, he found that this was not the case.Maybe I am still too clumsy. If I rush to confess to my teacher at this time, I will definitely scare the other party. Even if I am not scared, I will not be able to talk about the relationship.

Between him and his teacher, he seems to be more accustomed to such hazy ambiguity.Sometimes, with longing in mind, I hold the other person’s hand seemingly casually, and the tenderness in my chest overflows like honey.

This feeling is natural, and he actually doesn’t want to break it immediately.

Very late when he returned to the cabin, everyone was already asleep.Mo Ran lay back on the mat, looking at the night outside the narrow sky window, and the figure of Chu Wanning slowly appeared in front of his eyes, sometimes closing his eyes silently, sometimes with sharp eyebrows.

Of course, Mo Ran also thought of that person curled up and sleeping, docile and lonely, like a spring sleeping begonia that no one cares about because it blooms too high.

Putting aside hatred, the entanglement between Chu Wanning and he in his previous life is really deeper than anyone else in the world.

He took away many firsts from Chu Wanning, regardless of whether the other party was willing or not.

Such as the first kiss, the first time cooking, the first time crying.

And Chu Wanning’s first night.

To die, thinking about this makes him feel hot all over, and his blood rushes down.

In contrast, he also gave Chu Wanning some of his first times, whether the other party wanted it or not.

For example, it is the first time to become a disciple, the first time to coax someone, the first time to give flowers.

It was the first time I was completely disappointed with someone.

And, the first time I was tempted.

Yes, it was my first time.

When he came to the top of life and death, the first person he fell in love with was actually not Shi Mo, but Chu Wanning.

Under the crabapple tree that day, the young man in white was so focused on beauty that at first sight, Mo Ran felt that other than this person, he would not want anyone to be his master.

But at which moment did everything change?

When did the person he cared about become a master, and the person he hated became a master…

He thought about it carefully in the past few months, and then he felt that it should be after that misunderstanding.

That was the first time that he was punished by Chu Wanning with a willow vine. The fifteen-year-old boy returned to the dormitory with scars, curled up alone on the bed, his throat was choked, and the ends of his eyes were wet and red.The wound on the back was second, and what saddened him the most was the cold look on his master’s face. Tianwen fell down, just like beating a bereaved dog, without showing any mercy.

He secretly picked the crabapple in the medicine garden, which was good, but he didn’t know how precious that crabapple was, and he didn’t know how much effort Mrs. Wang had spent, waiting for five years for one to bloom.

He only knows that when he returned on a moonlit night that day, he saw a gleam of white lying on the branches.

The petals are cool in color and fragrant.

he looked up and admired it for a moment, thinking of his master.At that moment, for some reason, there was an inexplicable throbbing in my heart, and it seemed that even my fingertips couldn’t help but feel slightly hot.Before he could react, he carefully folded off the flower, moving gently, for fear of knocking off even a drop of dew on the petals.

Through the thick curtain of eyelashes, he looked at the late night crabapple with clear dew under the moonlight. He didn’t know that at that moment, the tenderness and love he left for Chu Wanning were so pure. They will never be there again in the next ten or twenty years, until death.

Before the flowers were given to the master, Xue Meng, who happened to be picking medicine for his mother, saw him.

The young master angrily turned he to the master. Chu Wanning looked back with his hands in hand. Hearing the words, his eyes were cold and sharp. He glanced at Mo Ran’s face and asked him what he wanted to argue.

Mo Ran said: “I folded flowers because I wanted to give them to…”

He still held the Spring Sleeping Begonia in his hand, which was covered with frost and dew, looking indescribably cold and charming.

But Allen Chu’s eyes were so cold that the lava-like heat in his chest cooled down inch by inch.

The word “you” can no longer be uttered.

That feeling was so familiar to him. Before he returned to the peak of life and death, when he was walking between Le Ling and his guest with his short and thin body, he spent every day with this look in his eyes——

That kind of contempt, that kind of contempt…

The ink suddenly trembled and shuddered.

Could it be that Master actually looks down on him?

Facing Chu Wanning’s cold questioning, Mo Ran felt his heart tremble.he lowered his head and said in a deep voice: “…I…have nothing to say.”

It’s a foregone conclusion.

Just because of this begonia, Chu Wanning beat him forty vines.Until Mo Ran’s initial kindness to him was shattered.

But if Mo Ran was willing to explain one more thing at that time, if Chu Wanning was willing to ask one more question at that time, then maybe everything would be different, and the master and disciple might not take the first step into eternal disaster.

But, there aren’t that many ifs.

And it was at this point that Warm Ru Shimei appeared beside he.

After returning from Chu Wanning, Mo Ran did not go to eat. He curled up on the bed and did not turn on the light.

Shi Mei pushed the door open and came in. What he saw was such a figure frozen in the darkness.He gently placed the red oil dragon paper he brought on the table, then walked to the bed and called softly: “Aran?”

Mo Ran did not have a deep love for his teacher at that time, and he did not look back. His bloody eyes were still staring at the wall, and his voice was hoarse and heavy when he opened his mouth.

“Get out.”

“I’m here to give you…”

“Get out of here.”

“Ah Ran, don’t do this.”

“…”

“Master’s temper is bad. Once you get used to it, it won’t be a problem. You should get up and eat something.”

Mo Ran is as stubborn as a stubborn donkey that cannot be dragged back by ten horses.

“If you don’t eat, I’m not hungry.”

“…At least give me a pad of your stomach. If you don’t eat, Master will get angry if he finds out -” Before he could even get angry, Mo Ran sat up and looked aggrieved and angry, trembling slightly through his eyelashes.

“Angry? Why is he angry? My mouth is on my face, so what does it have to do with him whether I eat or not? In fact, he doesn’t want me as his disciple at all. It would be best for me to starve to death. If I starve to death, it will save the master’s worries and make old man he happy.”

Teacher: “…………”

He didn’t expect that his words would touch the pain of Mo Ran like this, and he was at a loss for a while.He just stared blankly at the little junior brother in front of him.

After a long time, Mo Ran’s mood eased slightly, he lowered his head, and the long hair fell down on the side of his face, covering half of his face.

Mo Ran said: “…I’m sorry.”

The teacher couldn’t see his face clearly, but he could only see that his shoulders were suppressing tremors, his fingers were clenched into fists, and the meridians on the back of his hands were glowing light blue.

After all, a fifteen-year-old boy is still too childish. He endured it for a while, but finally couldn’t help it, sat down, hugged his knees and buried his head in tears.The voice was broken and hoarse, intermittent, filled with madness and confusion, pain and sadness.

he cried heartbreakingly, and the words he repeated over and over in his mouth were just a few words——

“I just want to have a family… In the past fifteen years, I really… really just want to have a family… Why do you look down on me… Why do you look down on me like this… Why, why do you all look down on me…”

He cried for a long time, and Shi Mei sat with him for a long time.

When Mo Ran had cried enough, Shi Mo handed him a white handkerchief, and then brought the already cold red oil handkerchief.

The teacher said warmly: “Stop talking nonsense about whether you will starve to death or not. Since you have returned to the pinnacle of life and death and worshiped under the master, you are my junior brother. I have also lost my parents since I was a child. If you are willing, just treat me as a family member. Come, let’s eat.”

“…”

“I made this hand. Even if you don’t appreciate Master’s face, you still have to reward me, right?” Shi Mo slightly curved his mouth, scooped up a crystal full hand, and handed it to Mo Ran’s lips, “Try it.”

Mo Ran’s eyes were still red, and he opened his eyes full of water vapor, looking at the person beside the bed, and finally let go, letting the gentle young man feed the food.

In fact, the bowl of rice noodles was already cold and over-soaked, so the best time to eat it was missed.

But at that moment, in the candlelight, it was this bowl of food that had been brought all the way, and along with that face with peerless elegance and gentle eyes, it was engraved in my heart in an instant.Before and after death, it will never be forgotten.

It probably started from that night.

He hated his master more and more deeply, and from that day on, he firmly believed that his master was the most important person in his life.

After all, people are greedy for warmth.

Especially the frozen dogs will tremble when they see the salt sprinkled, fearing that the snowflakes are falling, and they are afraid of the approaching severe winter.

Ta Xianjun looks beautiful, but only he knows it in his heart.

In fact, he is really just a stray wild dog. This wild dog has been looking for a place to curl up, a place that can be called “home”, but he has been looking for fifteen years and can’t find it.

Therefore, his love and hate become very simple and ridiculous——

Someone gives him a beating with a stick, and he hates it.

Someone gave him a bowl of broth, and he fell in love with it.

There is only so much potential.