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    “Today is the first day of the new year, right?” the queen asked.

    The nanny nodded blankly and responded.

    The hall fell silent again. The queen looked at the steps in front of the hall in silence. After a long while, she finally gave instructions: “According to the custom, the first and fifteenth day of the lunar month are the time for the emperor and empress’s family banquet. You can send a message to the emperor on my behalf…”

    “Empress!” The wet nurse immediately understood the Queen’s intention, and her voice was filled with sobs.

    The queen patted her hand, surprisingly calm.She interrupted the nanny and said to herself: “Just say that I am waiting for you in Chenghuan Hall.”

    The two diamond-patterned wooden doors in front of the palace were closed, and the queen sent away all the palace attendants.

    She glanced around aimlessly, feeling that the Chenghuan Hall was empty. She urgently needed something to fill it up, so she got the fire seal.

    Candlelights lit up one after another, making the hall look like daylight.

    Time seemed to be traced back at this moment, and she remembered the first time she and Emperor Yonghui met, on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month of a certain year during the Lantern Festival.

    On that day in my memory, the colorful lights were bright before my eyes.

    But after more than ten years of stumbling, now I can never go back to the past.

    There is a Xiangfei-colored skirt in the cabinet, which she wore when she was still a girl.That year, she wore it to choose the prince’s harem, and he praised it for looking good.

    This underskirt was quietly put away by her. She had taken good care of it for so many years, but she had never worn it again.

    The queen’s attire was too heavy. It tied up the Chen family, her future, and her extravagant hopes that she could never achieve in love.

    Fortunately, we can take them off together today. She took off her gorgeous clothes and put on plain clothes; she took off her pearls and jade and put on plain hairpins.

    The night falls, and the remaining candles linger longingly.Until the last ray of light in the sky dissipated, footsteps finally sounded outside Chenghuan Hall. He came alone.

    The door was pushed open, and the person who came was startled, but did not make a sound.

    There was a cold blank space in the brightly lit hall.After a while, the queen turned around and knelt down towards Emperor Yong Hui.

    Emperor Yonghui frowned, looked at her once more, then went up to sit down on his own.

    “If you have anything to say, just say it.”

    Six cold words, like an interrogation.

    The queen knelt down in front of he, kowtowed, and said in a choked voice: “I admit the mistakes I have made.”

    “Pleas guilty?” Emperor Yonghui asked, “What crime did the queen confess to?”

    The queen paused and then continued: “Thirteen years ago, I colluded with the King of Liang to murder Princess Anyang, framed the Xiao family, and poisoned the emperor’s heir and his mother… I confess to all these crimes.”

    As she sobbed, the queen raised her head and looked at Emperor Yonghui, “I do not ask for forgiveness, but I ask that the emperor, for the sake of you and me being husband and wife for thirteen years, please let go of the Chen family and the prince in consideration of our old relationship.”

    As soon as she finished speaking, what Queen Chen was waiting for was Emperor Yonghui’s sneer.

    “What an old relationship, what a let go.”

    He stared at her, clenching his big palms under the dragon robe, “When you were colluding with Liang Wanghang, did you ever miss your old relationship with my imperial sister? And did you ever let go of my Qingrong and the emperor’s son?!”

    The queen paused and couldn’t stop her tears from flowing out.

    “It’s all my fault. I was obsessed with trying to monopolize the emperor’s favor and gain honor for my mother’s family. That’s why I made a mistake and couldn’t regret it.” She fell to the ground, knocked her forehead loudly, and begged.

    “But… But Xun’er is young and has no idea about this. My mother’s family has never been involved in the incident between Xiao Liangdi and Princess Anyang. All the mistakes are my fault…” The queen kept sobbing, and her forehead was already dripping with blood.

    She knelt forward, grabbed the corner of Emperor Yonghui’s clothes, and shouted at the top of her lungs, “I’ll take it upon myself to apologize.”

    “Ha…” Emperor Yong Hui still sat upright, squinting coldly at the woman lying at his feet, “Do you want to commit suicide?”

    The queen was startled when she heard this and stopped crying.

    “If I grant you death, it will be a kindness to you.” He paused and said in a cold tone, “I want you and the Chen family to experience everything that the Xiao family has experienced. I also want you to experience the pain that I have experienced.”

    he softened his tone, leaned down, and held the queen’s chin with one hand, with determination and cruelty that belonged to an emperor in his eyes, “It’s not that easy to die. I want you to be the only queen in the Southern Dynasty who has been tried by the three divisions. Don’t you want to leave a name for the family? I will help you.”

    “Come here!” Emperor Yonghui shouted sternly, “put the queen in prison and hand over the case to the Dali Temple, the Ministry of Punishment and the Yushitai for joint trial, and it will be announced to the world soon.”

    The crying stopped suddenly, and Queen Chen slumped to the ground with a pale face. She looked in disbelief at the man in front of her who had been sleeping with her for thirteen years, and suddenly felt that she had never occupied any position in his heart.

    The palace door was pushed open, and Fugui led the palace people in.

    The wind in the winter night was extremely cold, but it couldn’t compare to the tangled coldness in her heart.

    She has always known that she is a pawn of the family, and she also knows that in the heart of the man in front of her, she will never be as good as Xiao Liangdi.

    But thirteen years, more than 4,000 days and nights, and the son and daughter she risked her life to give birth to for him, did not win her any sympathy at all.

    She is his first wife.

    At some point, the red rope that Yue Lao tied on her turned into her shackles without realizing it.Tie her tightly so that she cannot move.

    What I want in this life becomes more and more like a joke.

    The empty laughter echoed in Chenghuan Hall, with desolation in the loneliness.Tears bursting into laughter, the queen finally stood up, stared at Emperor Yonghui, and asked calmly, “Your Majesty, you think the person who killed Xiao Liangdi was a concubine?”

    “But I think that the person who killed Xiao Liangdi is you, the emperor!”

    Seeing that something was not going well, Fugui winked at the people around him, but was stopped by Emperor Yonghui with a wave of his sleeves.

    “Let her continue.” The emperor said in a cold voice, and no one dared to resist.

    Queen Chen looked at him with a smile, and tears flowed down along with the blood stains on her face, forming streams of bloody tears.

    “You gave her an unworthy preference and an honor that everyone in the Xiao family would envy. You didn’t kill Xiao Liangdi…”

    She paused, then looked straight at the man above her with a pair of red eyes, and said word for word: “You just gently brought her to a high position above ten thousand people, turned her into a target of public criticism, then removed her ladder, and then watched her die indifferently.”

    “After all, you are just as hateful as I am.”

    As soon as the words dispersed, the vast hall became so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. Everyone present held their breath, and the air solidified into ice.

    After a long time, Emperor Yonghui sighed expressionlessly, then changed into an extremely tired voice, and waved to Fugui.

    He turned his back and stopped looking at her.

    The queen did not let anyone from the palace get closer. Her last look in the Chenghuan Palace showed her eyes still burning on the man above her.

    I can’t explain what it feels like, nostalgia, unwillingness, resentment…

    But until she walked down the ninety-nine steps with her head held high and looked back – that person, the person she had been secretly longing for, never looked at her again after all.

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