203 “After Fast Traveling and Sleeping with the Villain” World 7, Substitute Lover (14)

“No way.”

Xue Xue gave the answer himself without waiting for Chi Yu to answer.

“I can’t trust someone unconditionally. Even if this person is my lover, I can’t give everything to him from the beginning.”

“My personality is like this. Regardless of whether it is affected by the environment or not, I have lived with this mentality for more than 20 years and I can’t change it.” After a pause, Xue Xue added.”I don’t want to change either.”

“It’s my fault for not telling you this clearly. Now I’m honest with you. This is who I am, whether you accept it or not.”

Having said that, it finally comes to an end.

Chi Yu didn’t seem to have reacted yet.

After all, Xue Li rarely talks so much. When the two of them are alone, she usually acts as a listener.

“What about… Fu Qingyu?”

As soon as Chi Yu said these words, the whole atmosphere immediately became weird.

He was actually a little annoyed. It was rare for a woman to be willing to tell him what was in her heart. However, none of this seemed to be as lethal as Fu Qingyu. To Chi Yu, the three words Fu Qingyu were like a burning thorn that penetrated his heart and hurt when touched.

What he didn’t know was that Xue Xue had been waiting for him to take the initiative to talk about Fu Qingyu.

If she mentioned it by herself, it would be difficult for her to accurately grasp Chi Yu’s reaction, but it would be different if Chi Yu mentioned it.

At least there is a buffer.

“Fu Qingyu? He is Xiangxiang’s boyfriend.” Xue Xue tilted his head and thought for a while, then explained in more detail.”To me now, he is just Xiangxiang’s boyfriend.”

Chi Yu did not ignore the time adverb Xue Xue used.

“Now? What about before?”

“Before…” Xue Xue said, leaning against the door panel, staring at Chi Yu with a look that was half-smiling but gentle and tolerant.”Didn’t you already know it, or guess it?”

When Chi Yu heard Xue Xue throw the question back, he didn’t know what to say for a moment, and he felt inexplicably guilty, as if he was an unreasonable child.

Xue Xue felt funny when he saw Chi Yu’s face turning blue and white.

It was obviously something he wanted to ask, but he still looked like he was being asked.

“I just want to hear what you have to say.”

After a long while, Chi Yu finally found his voice.

His eyelashes are thick and long, like two rows of small fans. When his eyelids are drooped, he looks several years younger than his actual age. With his beautiful face, even if his face is expressionless, he still looks innocent and pitiful.

Xue Xue felt as if his heart had been hit by something, and there was a hint of sweetness in the sourness and swelling.

Although this body is a little younger than Chi Yu, if the time passed in these worlds is combined, she can be regarded as an ancestor.

Xue Xue, who originally wanted to leave Chi Yu alone for a while, thought of this and felt that he should not argue with Chi Yu.

So, she changed her position.

He was still staring at Chi Yu, but his plain white arms were wrapped around the man’s neck like a vine branch.

“I’m just telling you this time, you have to listen clearly.”

“I did like Fu Qingyu, but this love faded before it could turn into love.”

When Xue Xue said his first words, Chi Yu held his breath. For a moment, he could even feel the sting caused by lack of oxygen to his brain. However, before the stinging feeling could be transmitted to the whole body, he suddenly stopped because of Xue Xue’s next words.

He rolled his stiff neck.

At the moment when Xue Xue’s eyes met, Chi Yu saw something in the woman’s eyes that he had not noticed in the past.

“I admit that for a long time, I couldn’t tell whether my feelings for Fu Qingyu were like, love, or gratitude?” Xue Xue continued.”Actually, I can’t understand my feelings not only for Fu Qingyu, but also for you.”

“Although I am in my twenties, my experience in this area may not be as good as that of some children who are not yet underage.”

Saying that, Xue Xue smiled bitterly.

“I have never had an affair with anyone, nor have I ever liked anyone, or been liked by anyone. Those things are far, far away from my life.” Xue Xue’s eyes began to become blank.”I have too many things to do, and as for feelings… no one has taught me how to judge, express, and face since I was a child.”

“Fu Qingyu is the first person who treats me well without any other external conditions. I can feel his sincerity.”

“I like getting along with him and being taken care of by him. It makes me feel that there are people in this world who treat me like this, not because I have something they need, but just because I am who I am.”

“Do you understand what I mean? I…”

Xue Xue was already a little incoherent when he said this, but just enough, Chi Yu could understand.

Because he has also had such an experience.

At first glance, it seems that you have grown up well and become like an indestructible iron wall. However, only those who have experienced it personally will understand that the shadow and pain of childhood will not completely disappear with the passage of time, but will be carefully hidden in various ways.

In the silence, the two looked at each other, with only each other in their eyes.

It seems that there is no one else in the world except Xue Xue and Chi Yu.

“You are different, Chi Yu.”

Xue Xue’s voice was soft, like a whisper, but in the limited space of the car, it was like using a loudspeaker, and every word was amplified very clearly.

“You and Fu Qingyu are different. You gave me what Fu Qingyu could give me. However, Fu Qingyu couldn’t give me what you gave me.”

“Do you understand what I mean? Chi…