293 “After Fast Traveling and Sleeping with the Villain” World 8, Him at the Same Desk (49)

Xue Xue was startled.

Su Xiangnan raised an arm to cover his face at some point.

Although he couldn’t see his expression, Xue Xue could feel his emotions.

That can’t be summed up by just two words: “depression”.

Like a plant that has lost sunlight and nutrients, Su Xiangnan is withering at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Xue Xue held his hand tightly, hoping to pass on her power to him, even if it was insignificant.

“I knew there would be such a day, and I have been mentally preparing myself.” The voice was vague, and the bloodless lips were trembling. Every word Su Xiangnan said seemed to be squeezed out from between the teeth.”But when that day came, I found…”

There is no time to be ready.

Su Xiangnan didn’t say this sentence, but Xue Xue could guess it.

Before birth, old age, illness and death, human beings appear small and powerless.

“My mother… finally left me a letter.”

Letter?Xue Xue understood what this meant.

Su Lin was prepared to meet his own death.

“She wanted me to live a good life in the future and forget everything about the past. It would be best not to blame other people or the unfair fate. She made such a decision to reconcile with herself and has nothing to do with other people.” Su Xiangnan’s speaking speed became faster and faster, and his voice became softer and softer. In the end, I didn’t know whether he was talking to Xue Xue or mumbling to himself.”Because I have become an adult who can take charge of my own business, she can finally leave with peace of mind… ha.”

A low laugh expressed how hurt and helpless the person left behind was.

However, time cannot be turned back, and the ending written cannot be changed.

“Su Xiangnan, aunt…your mother…this may be a relief for her.”

It was hurtful to say this, but seeing Su Xiangnan’s dejected look, Xue Xue realized that maybe talking about it was the best thing for him.

“Don’t think that she abandoned you. Think about it from another perspective. Auntie is just accompanying you in a different way.”

“Really?” The sharp tone made Xue Xue stunned for a moment.”Actually, these are just excuses, right? Just an excuse to comfort me.”

After finishing speaking, Su Xiangnan put down his arm and turned his head suddenly to look at Xue Xue.

The dark pupils exuded a hint of coldness.

“My mother always felt that she was dragging me down, but wasn’t it me who was dragging her down too?” Su Xiangnan’s tone was harsh. Except for the first time we met, the impression that Su Xiangnan had left in Xue Xue’s memory was already very weak.”You also know that, right? Without me, she might not have had any hope of entering the Lin family. Later, we were kicked away… If she hadn’t brought a drag bottle with her, maybe she would have a new family and a new life now.”

“It’s all because of me that I slowed her down and made her trapped in Lin Youfeng’s shadow for the rest of her life, unable to get out.”

This seems to be the first time Su Xiangnan mentioned Lin Youfeng.

His nominal biological father, a man who only gave him a brief father’s love in childhood but still refused to acknowledge him.

The appearance of this name made Xue Xue understand how much harm Su Lin’s death had brought to Su Xiangnan.

“That’s not the case.” She spoke out, interrupting Su Xiangnan’s self-loathing.”What’s your parents’ business is your parents’ business, it has nothing to do with you.”

“Auntie will give birth to you. That is her decision. It is a decision she made willingly without being forced.” Realizing that Su Xiangnan wanted to move, Xue Xue held him harder.”You can’t deny this just because of what happened later, Su Xiangnan.”

“Life is a dynamic development. A small change of thoughts during the process may lead to completely different results, but what you experience and feel at every moment is real and indelible.”

“Didn’t Auntie always tell you that she doesn’t regret giving birth to you?”

“Indeed, without you, she might have another life, but is this life necessarily a good one?” Su Xiangnan’s expression was dull and absent-minded, but Xue Xue knew that he was listening to her.”You are Su Xiangnan, not Su Lin. You can have your own thoughts and feelings, but they cannot represent Su Lin. Do you understand?”

Su Xiangnan didn’t answer.

Xue Xue knew that he understood, he just needed some time to accept the reality.

Although I’m not sure if it would be prudent to mention this now, Xue Xue’s thoughts have been shaken.

She felt that maybe Su Xiangnan should divert his attention and use a more decisive method to break the shackles placed on him by his biological parents.

“I want to tell you something.” Xue Xue’s voice was gentle as he readjusted Su Xiangnan’s slightly crooked mask.”I just discussed it with Sister Chen. Maybe now is not a good time… but I think I should give you a little more time to think.”

Meeting Su Xiangnan’s distracted gaze, Xue Xue smiled slightly.

“Now, just listen to me.”

As Xue Xue expected, Su Xiangnan did not agree with her and Chen Rong’s approach.

At the same time, although the boy did not protest violently, he looked at her with a very disappointed look, as if he was questioning how Xue Xue could have such an idea.

Human nature.

On the way from the hospital to accompanying Su Xiangnan home, the two of them had no communication.

“Su Xiangnan, I know you feel uncomfortable.”

Just as Su Xiangnan inserted the key into the door hole, held the handle and was about to turn it away, Xue Xue finally spoke.

She stared at the boy who had his whole face hidden under the brim of the hat, and said to him in a very calm tone: “However, when a person is alive, no matter how uncomfortable things are, he must get through it, in order to live up to the wishes and… last wishes of those who love him.”

Hearing this, Su Xiangnan’s body became stiff.