[R18] Indulge in lust – “Indulgence and Love” Chapter 083 Unbalanced Feelings [English]

The two looked at each other for a long time and were silent.

Lu Shenghao’s chest rose and fell slightly, and his breathing was somewhat rapid. A trace of excitement could still be seen in his big black eyes, and his eyelashes fluttered, which could not hide the panic and worry in his heart.When facing Fu Qinghan, he was so full of words that he suddenly didn’t know where to start. He moved his lips several times without saying a single word.

Fu Qinghan’s heart trembled, his eyebrows gradually relaxed, his expression relaxed, but his tone was still very calm and slightly distant: “Have you thought about what you want to say?”

“I…” When the word came out, Lu Shenghao suddenly paused, his shoulders slumped, his eyes dimmed, he was silent for a moment, and without letting Fu Qinghan wait too long, he whispered: “I’m sorry.”

“Why?” Fu Qinghan unconsciously picked up the pen, opened the pen cap, and put it on again, making a slight “click” sound.

The man pursed his lips into a straight line, looked at her sincerely, and carefully worded his words: “For today’s matters and last time in the restaurant, I left early.”

When he mentioned the restaurant, Fu Qinghan raised his eyes: “It was also because of her last time, right?”

Her expression was so plain that it was difficult for Lu Shenghao to guess what she was thinking at the moment, whether she was angry and blaming, casually mocking, or just asking casually… No matter which one, it made him uncomfortable.

The guilt and self-blame tumbling in his heart made the anxiety he had barely suppressed rise again.Her legs moved involuntarily, and she walked quickly to the desk. She stared into Fu Qinghan’s eyes and explained eagerly: “That time it really happened…she said she would jump off the building if I didn’t get over! She is a person who can do anything when she is impulsive. I’m afraid she will do something stupid. After all, it’s a human life!”

“Oh~” Fu Qinghan responded meaningfully, with no emotion in his tone. She raised her eyebrows, but said nothing.

“There was a time when I was really at a loss about my feelings for you and our relationship…” Lu Shenghao’s eyes dimmed for a moment, and his tone was dejected, “I never thought about sharing my beloved with another man.”

Fu Qinghan stared at he quietly, and Lu Shenghao seemed to be inspired, and continued: “I thought a lot during that time, and sometimes I thought of her, occasionally. When I thought of her, I also felt that I was no different. I had been with her for so long, and within a few days of separation, I started to suffer from insomnia because of another woman. It was also when she came back to me that I suddenly realized that I really couldn’t live without you. She often said break up before, but this is the only time, sheWhen I came back, my first reaction was not happiness, but surprise, shock, and worry.When I thought of you, I realized that I was no longer waiting for her to come back.”

Lu Shenghao couldn’t help but stretched out his hand to hold Fu Qinghan’s hand. The pen slipped from her fingers, and their warmth merged together.

“Even if you won’t only be with me, even if you won’t only like me, I want you, and I know it’s you!” The man’s tone was a little excited. “I tell her clearly every time, but she doesn’t seem to understand. I insist that I am retaliating against her for breaking up and punishing her, but I still love her in my heart. But the only person I love now is you! I really… I really don’t know what to do.”

The enthusiasm, sincerity, confusion and sorrow in he’s eyes were so realistically reflected in Fu Qinghan’s eyes that it hurt her.Her hand was tightly grasped by he, with such force that he held her firmly in his hand and refused to let go.

Fu Qinghan’s originally calm heart was stirred up by this fiery emotion. She frowned and didn’t speak for a long time.

To be honest, when it comes to “sharing it with other men”, her heart has already softened.Although he did not resolve the dispute with his ex, he was able to say “I only love you” in front of her.She seems…not qualified to ask for too much.

Once I think this way, I feel uncomfortable.

She is not so shameless that she loves all sentient beings but requires all sentient beings to only love her.Even if the selfishness and instinct deep in human nature are indeed demanding, it seems that they should not be brought to the forefront.

This made Fu Qinghan a little confused.

In a daze, she heard herself asking: “What kind of result do you want? Me or her? Or both? I won’t ask others for things that I can’t do myself. If I just admit to being greedy for the other person’s body, would things be simpler?”

Lu Shenghao was stunned for a moment, almost before he could react, Fu Qinghan said again: “My bottom line is that things like today will never happen again.”

At this point, her thoughts became clear, her eyes looked directly at he, and she said: “If we talk about love, maybe it will always be an unbalanced relationship; if we only talk about sex, please put out the fire in the backyard before asking me out. I like you very much, but I don’t like you enough to be willing to be the supporting actress in a bad eight o’clock drama, competing with a childish woman for an immature man.”

Since you have been cruel once, you might as well be more thorough.

Lu Shenghao looked at her almost expressionless face, her lips trembling, and her pupils were full of anger. He put his hands on the desk, leaned down, and stared into her eyes: “I only love you, and I only want you!”

“What if she commits suicide next time? Aren’t you going to leave me to find her too? Next time she points at my nose in public and scolds me for being a mistress and shameless, what will be the first thing you say?” Fu Qinghan looked at him calmly. At this moment, she was extremely rational.

Face your own concerns honestly and the selfishness engraved in your bones.

Half an hour later, Fu Qinghan walked quickly to the luxury car parked in the exclusive parking space. He pressed the key in his hand, opened the door and got in, leaning his head heavily on the seat.

She let out a long sigh, and the image of Lu Shenghao walking back and forth in the office like a manic leopard still replayed in her mind.

While I was lost in thought, the right door of the car was suddenly opened, and a figure quickly flashed into the passenger seat. With a bang, the door slammed shut, and a familiar voice sounded in my ears: “Drive!”

Fu Qinghan was frightened by this sudden turn of events. He turned his head and caught a glimpse of Mu Fanzhou’s handsome profile. He didn’t recover for several seconds.

“Drive.” Mu Fanzhou’s chest rose and fell violently, and his tone calmed down, but it still had the usual domineering and irresistible tone.

Fu Qinghan couldn’t believe his eyes and ears, but he didn’t know that now was not the time to be in a daze and ask questions. He immediately started the car and drove out of the parking space, then decisively stepped on the accelerator to accelerate, left the underground garage, and merged into the traffic on the main road.

The scenery outside the window flashed quickly, and the light of the street lamp hit Mu Fanzhou’s face. The shadows lengthened and shortened, bright and dark, making it almost impossible to see his expression clearly.