[R18] My father is a pervert – “My Father Is a Pervert” Special Chapter 4: Living to Death [English]

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The following is the Luke decryption that has been warmed up for a long time…ah, no, it’s a special chapter on Luke.

Also known as: Darkness is the shape of loving you

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I have no last name, no parents.My sister is my parents.My sister is gentle, hard-working, and the most beautiful and best person in the world.But others don’t think so. When those men come, my sister will always be beaten and she will always cry.

My sister and I, together with my twin sister, were occasionally beaten and scolded, and occasionally hungry, but there seemed to be no other worries.Until we were seven years old, a man dragged my sister into the room.My sister tried to stop her without her life, but was beaten until she fell down with blood on her face.I was petrified.

My sister screamed in the room.My sister fell motionless outside.I still regret that I didn’t move that day, and I’m still glad that I didn’t move that day.

My sister will die in a few days.

My sister is getting weaker and weaker, and the men stop coming.Not long after, we were kicked out. My sister protected me until she died and did her best to take care of me.I learned the first and most valuable lesson in life. In this cruel world, you cannot survive without support.

Hunger makes people grow up overnight.I began to try my best to find support on the road of survival.I only have my own appearance, which is as beautiful as my elder sister and younger sister. I occasionally have to pay some price, but compared with what my elder sister and younger sister have suffered, I am lucky enough.I am a man, so I live and she dies.

I struggled to climb up in the mud, and finally climbed up to Lance, the leader of the Dragonlance Knights.He was a rare upright man. I held on to him tightly until I was thirteen years old and followed him to the battlefield.When I was fifteen, I was promoted into Dragonlance and gradually earned my status.When I was seventeen I was knighted and appointed tutor to Prince Leon.At this point, it seemed like I no longer had to worry about survival.

Leon is only nine years old. He is unruly and rebellious, but has a pure nature.I like teasing him very much.I like children.They know nothing about this world of cannibalism, and they are as happy as I was when I was young.

Then, I met the little princess.

She is playful, willful, and very kind.She reminds me of my sister. We used to play together so carefree, and no ugliness in the world could disturb her.If she survives, she will now be as beautiful and gentle as my sister. I will do my best to protect her and take care of her, just like my sister is to me.

But she is dead, but I am still alive and will do whatever it takes to survive.

Five years.The rabbit I carved is not for the little princess, but for my sister, for the life that my heart desires but has long since been lost forever.

The war ended and the whole country celebrated, but I was knocked back to my original shape overnight – no family, no industry, no income. I returned to the palm of “poverty” again. Twenty years of life-and-death struggle were all wiped away by the devil with a wave of his hand.It turns out that I didn’t crawl far out, I was still the same child struggling in the mud. Without support, I couldn’t survive.

I started selling myself out again.This is also my last chance, how long can my looks last?

So far in my life, I have used my looks for benefits countless times.But I’ve never really been sexually involved with anyone.Maybe I’m waiting for the price to be enough for me to sacrifice myself?I don’t know either.There were a few people who pestered me too much, and I thought it was okay to give them some sweetness, but I ended up killing them.I don’t know why I insist on keeping myself safe. What those men did to my sister when I was young has been recurring in my nightmares.Maybe I’m scared, but I don’t want to admit it.Whenever I miss my elder sister and younger sister, I go to church and beat myself with a whip, whipping this body that is as beautiful as them but lives alone.

Poverty chokes me, and I choose my buyers.The bishop seems to be the best choice, he is much better than those women who only have money but no power.This time I have to sacrifice my body… Even though I can cut flesh and scrape bones on the battlefield, when faced with naked carnal desires, my instinct is still to escape.I was struggling with the contradiction between survival and resistance. It was not until the Holy Feast Day that I went to the wine tasting room with him and drank the drug. I thought I could grit my teeth and endure it. It was not until I was tied up and humiliated that I regretted it.

I wanted to kill him, I wanted to rush into the confessional and whip myself hard, but it was too late. This was a choice I made, and I had to bear the consequences.

As a result, I was still saved.Every time I fall to the bottom of an abyss, there will always be a life-saving straw like this, and I will ignore my tiredness and hopelessly climb up again.

After that day, it didn’t take me long to make up my mind.She is an excellent choice. She has power, status, wealth, and most importantly, is kind and easy to control.I began to pursue her, and soon she was blinded by my appearance and fell into my design like other people.Not long after, the devil of poverty cursed viciously and retreated. I kept waiting for her to demand a corresponding price from me, but she didn’t, and never did.

I pay more and more attention to her and get to know her.The scandal between her and the royal family spread across the country, but I saw her who was completely different from the rumors.No, she’s different from everyone I’ve ever met.Men, women, I always know what they want and what they want from me.But she doesn’t want it. She would rather suffer pain than she wants.

She is like my sister, she is obviously the most beautiful and gentle person in the world, but she is always sad.I knew she pitied me, so I used her guilt to tie her up and keep her.I want to be nice to her, be nicer to her.

I am willing to give myself to her, and gradually I am willing to give her anything.She was charming, lovely, and she gave me the life I once longed for but never had the chance to have.As the seasons change, she is always there, as sweet as the wildest lover, and completely dependent on me like a child… This world used to be an endless quagmire, and I had to struggle to climb up to avoid suffocation, but she effortlessly turned everything into the paradise described in the holy book.

Unfortunately, nothing in this world lasts forever. Changes will always come.In midsummer, news came from the palace that if other men called her, she would leave everything and me without hesitation.For seven days, I thought she would never come back.

What if she doesn’t come back?I have paid off my debts and now have property. I will no longer have to worry about my livelihood.She may still think of me and summon me. I am one of her lovers, just like the knights raised by other ladies. This is the most normal thing.I asked for kindness and got it, and I got more than what I asked for, so I should be satisfied.

But, I want her, so what should I do?

I was out of my mind for seven days before I realized that I didn’t want wealth or status, I needed her.I don’t care if she has someone more important in her heart, I would like to be “one” of her, no, I would like to ask her to be “one” of her, as long as I can be by her side.

She came back seven days later.When I was ecstatic, I just wanted to be better to her, and I would do anything for her.But she wants too little and is always satisfied so easily. I hate myself for not being able to give her more.Until that day, I saw her and the Duke of Goia…

She looked so happy and beautiful that I was obsessed with her.She said she was lascivious, but she had no idea how cute she was in comparison to the many ugly and hypocritical people I had met.Since she likes it, I will give it to three or more people. I am willing to see her happy and I can make her happy, which is the ultimate satisfaction for me.

Only between the sheets, she will forget all her worries and immerse herself in pure joy.After returning to the real world, she fell into endless sadness.She didn’t realize that she was forcing a smile and being gentle and considerate to me, but I knew the people in her heart, and she was worried day and night for them…

I am willing to give everything for her, but I can’t do it to let her return to the court.

Those are the king and crown prince of the country!How long can she survive in their grasp?Over the years, hasn’t she been hurt enough?

I hope to take her away one day, but I can’t do it now.I can only do my best to take her outside the royal capital to relax.Slowly she smiled more, I thought it would be fine, time would heal everything, until this night, the messenger knocked on the hotel door.As long as the palace calls her, she will throw herself into the flames regardless of the cost.

This servant, at this time, made me suspicious, but seeing her losing her mind, panic ran through my spine like lightning.She can’t go back, she will be injured to pieces again, she can’t leave, she still has me, obviously I will give her happiness, I will give her everything, why should she leave, haven’t I done enough?

“You can’t go back like this! Don’t leave me! Why?! Can’t I do that?!”

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The end of Luke’s special chapter

That little cutie said that sugar belongs to sugar daddy?Come to receive the award!

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