[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” 249 If I can’t protect you and me, what’s the use of being president? [English]

Gu Yuewei didn’t tell anyone the day she left Beicheng for Switzerland.

She went to the airport quietly without telling anyone, wearing a mask and sunglasses, completely thinking she was Lan Xin.

While waiting in the waiting room, I noticed that I was the only one on this flight. Even after boarding, all the seats were empty. When I realized something was wrong, I saw the man sitting in the last row of seats – Lin Sen.

…

As the plane slowly rose, Gu Yuewei turned to look outside the cabin, getting further and further away from the ground, overlooking the familiar city that was getting smaller and smaller. She felt calm without any disturbance in her heart. In the past, she often sighed, but since she learned that she was probably infected with AIDS that night, she no longer had the same passion for the people or things around her, like… a walking dead.

She smiled self-deprecatingly, keeping her gaze outside: “I find that my mind seems to be getting less and less useful now. I have forgotten that you have always sent people to protect me secretly. You know my whereabouts well, how can I hide where I am going from you?”

Lin Sen held her hand, with a calm expression on his face as usual, “Stop hiding, otherwise I will feel useless.”

He added: “If I can’t protect you and I, what’s the use of being president?”

The tip of Gu Yuewei’s nose was sore and she held He’s hand. She looked back and lowered her head, holding back her tears. “I don’t believe in fate. I have never believed in fate. I have always taken the blocking medicine on time and have never stopped once. Apart from the physical weakness caused by poor sleep, I have no other He condition. I don’t believe that I will be so weak every time.”

“I am not addicted to drugs as strong as heroin, and I will definitely be able to stop the AIDS virus.”

He raised his head, with a smile on his face, and looked at the man in front of him, “As for me being healthy, you and my uncle will be fine.”

Lin Sen had the urge to unbuckle her and hug her, but the plane was rising, so he resisted.

…

In the luxurious first class cabin, after the sensor door was closed, Gu Yuewei was held in Lin Sen’s arms. The conversation was normal at first, but when their eyes met, the two faces couldn’t help but get closer and closer, their breaths blended together, and their lips got closer and closer.

I think of this man knowing that she might have been infected with AIDS, but he still stayed close to her without hesitation, and even deliberately bit her neck and sucked her blood, just to be with her no matter in hell or in heaven.

“Mu Chengsen, what are you talking about? Are you stupid?” He held his face with both hands, put it against his lips and sucked on it. His eyelashes trembled, and when he opened his eyes, his eyes were already misty. “You really don’t need to make yourself like me. None of this is your fault and has nothing to do with you.”

Lin Sen didn’t give her another chance to speak, so he kissed her instead, tracing the shape of her lips with his tongue, then inserted it into his mouth, sucked her tongue and entwined it with her. He picked her up by the waist and sat on his lap. “Before I met you, I never spared my life. Life is the most worthless thing to me. I only want to live after I meet you. I will work hard to love you forever.”

Because the longest love confession is… companionship.

(Recently, I have been feeling very emotional. When I see a good friend being framed and slandered, I can’t do anything to help her. If I speak up for her, I will be scolded a lot. In today’s era of keyboard warriors, it seems that everyone is no longer responsible for their own words. Even if they know the truth, they can only suffer in silence.

So sometimes.I also hope that my friend can have a Linsen who can protect her from wind and rain and eliminate that green tea.)

That’s it, I will continue to write, and I will not let down all of you who like Lin Sen and Yue Wei.