[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” 222 The handkerchief is full of blood (second update of 6200 pearls) [English]

Facts have proved that it is impossible to wake up at all.

A man like Gu Yi is terribly paranoid. Once he has made up his mind about something, he will never look back. Just like he said before: “Unless Mu Chengsen kills me, don’t think I will give up.”

Gu Yuewei felt that even if she told the truth, this man would not listen to her. She just didn’t understand, “You marry that woman who looks exactly like me, then tell me, who should I be? I am not a Gu family member, and I don’t know who my father is, and I have such a mother. Should I change my identity? Change my name? It’s better to change this face! Let that woman become the real Gu Yuewei in your mind, right?”

“Whatever you look like, I will make her look like that.” Gu Yi’s mood did not fluctuate, his eyes were dim, he stood up with a cane and walked to her, looking at the mature woman in front of him intently, “I love you, not your face.”

“Then why do you want other women to look like me?”

“Because I miss you.” He raised his hand to touch her face. When he saw her turning her head to dodge, her palms were hanging in the air, and her smile was slightly bitter: “Look, how much do you hate me now? But Yue Wei, you seem to know that you were the one who provoked me in the first place, and you were the one who deceived my heart.”

“Tell me, what can I do to get my heart back from you? Do you know? I’ve lived this kind of life for a long time! The woman that I miss! The woman that I trained with my own hands! I enjoy myself every night on the crotch of other men! I scream like a bitch when I’m being fucked! My life is worse than death!”

“Don’t you want me to give up? Okay.” He grabbed her wrist and, regardless of her struggle, dragged her to the study room on the second floor with unsteady steps. He opened the drawer and handed her a pistol filled with bullets. “Come on, don’t you want me to give up? Shoot here!”

Gu Yuewei’s eyes were red, and she felt a kind of distress that she had never felt before. How could she not feel this kind of pain?When I loved this man without hesitation, when I saw him being intimate with another woman, I felt like I was heartbroken and wanted to die, “Uncle…”

Choking with sobs, he called out “he, uncle,” “Don’t force me, uncle…please…”

“I didn’t force you. Even if you don’t shoot, Mu Chengsen won’t let me go. What do you think? If I pull him to die together before I die, will you hate me especially?”

“Don’t be like this, uncle.” He let go of the gun and dropped it on the table. “I surrender, uncle. I really surrender.”

Tears fell, and she was prepared before coming. Although she had already thought of it, “My mother was right. She said I was a loser and would only bring disaster to everyone. She was kicked out of a wealthy family, and my dad got cancer. She said that no matter who I marry in the future, he will be left with nothing. I didn’t believe it before, but I really believe it now.”

“I don’t deserve happiness at all. If I leave, is it okay if I leave? I don’t want anyone, and I won’t follow anyone. Will you stop hating me?”

“You would rather leave than choose me.” Gu Yi laughed self-deprecatingly, but there were crystal tears in his dark eyes, “Yue Wei, how disgusting are you with me? You would rather live alone forever than choose me.”

He staggered back, but the fire accumulated in his chest could not be released, “Ahem…”

When he coughed, he turned away, took out a gray handkerchief from his trouser pocket and covered his mouth.

In Gu Yuewei’s unseen sight, the handkerchief was covered in blood.

…

When Gu Yuewei left, Gu Yi said to she, “Yuewei, Mu Chengsen is not a good match for you. I would rather let you and Zixu be together than with you, you know? Before I left, you were the one I worried about the most.”

Why is he’s words more like a farewell?

On the way home from Gu’s house, I felt more and more strange that Gu Yi’s behavior and his words were strange.

He turned around at the intersection ahead and drove back to the direction of Gu’s house. When he arrived at the entrance of the hospital, he saw an ambulance. Two medical staff came out carrying a stretcher. It was Gu Yi lying on it.

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