[R18] Paranoid desire – “Paranoid Desire” Chapter 48 [English]

Liang Mochen’s selfishness 2300 words

Only Liang Mochen and Mu Shiyan knew about Sheng Jin’s miscarriage.

After being discharged from the hospital a week later, Sheng Jin moved into the apartment arranged by Liang Mochen. It was some distance away from the Mu family and the Fu family. It had a beautiful environment. Sitting on the balcony, you could see Yanqi Lake in Beicheng. You could also hear the chirping of birds when you opened the window every morning. It was very suitable for meditation.

During this period, her mother Ruan Chengxiang called her dozens of times and sent her a dozen abusive text messages for not answering the phone. She chose to ignore it and simply blocked her mother’s number.

Liang Mochen booked a flight ticket and flew to Paris, France three days later. His passport was still at Fu’s house, so Sheng Jin went back to get it.

Fu Yu saw Sheng Jin again and saw how thin she was. Since Liang Mochen was there, he was too embarrassed to ask her where she had been these days.

Seeing Sheng Jin carrying the suitcase from upstairs and Liang Mochen going up to pick it up, he suddenly understood, “Are you leaving?”

“Well, if my mother calls you again in the future, don’t answer it. Just block her number.” Sheng Jin knew very well what kind of person her mother was and didn’t want to cause trouble to the Fu family. “I have severed the mother-daughter relationship with my mother, and I have no relationship with the Mu family now.”

“But…” Fu Yu wanted to say something more, but when the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back because he wanted to ask Mu Shiyan more, “Does he know?”Does Mu Shiyan agree to your leaving?

Considering Liang Mochen’s current relationship with she, it’s better to talk as little as possible to avoid getting into trouble.

…

The Mu family has not contacted Mu Shiyan for more than a week. The number is turned off, and even Song Qing’an doesn’t know where he has gone.

Song Qing’an sent a message to Liang Mochen, “There has been no news about Shi Yan since he left the hospital that night. I’m really worried about him.”

Liang Mochen called Gu Yi and asked him about Mu Shiyan’s whereabouts. Gu Yi originally wanted to keep it secret, but when he thought about the changes in his second brother Mu Shiyan this week, his voice became a little rough.

Dumb and helpless, “Brother, we really did something wrong. Second brother, he really can’t live without Sheng Jin!”

“What happened?”

“You’ll know just come here and take a look. Just come here yourself. No one can tell, otherwise… my second brother’s life will be really ruined!”

Gu Yi sent the address, and the navigation showed it was Simu, the most famous villa area in Beicheng.

Simu is a high-end real estate owned by Mu’s family. It is a single-family villa with a swimming pool, a small basketball court and a garden. It has a good environment and security.

Outsiders have to go through layers of approvals to enter Simu, and the owners who live here have very unusual backgrounds.

After arriving, Liang Mochen was thinking about it and saw Gu Yi’s car parked in the parking space.

Gu Yi stood at the door looking a little nervous. After staying up for a week in a row, he was physically and mentally exhausted. Seeing Liang Mochen was like seeing a life-saving straw, “Brother, you are finally here!”

“Where’s Shi Yan?”

“Inside.”

When I walked in, I first saw several doctors and nurses in white coats running upstairs, “Why are there doctors here?”

Seeing them all running upstairs, Gu Yi immediately became nervous, “Oh no, brother! Second brother is sick again!”

Liang Mochen and Gu Yi walked up the stairs and heard a familiar roar: “Let me out! Let me out! I’m going to find Sheng Jin! I’m going to find her! Let me out!”

“Sheng Jin! Sheng Jin! You can’t go with Liang Mochen! No!”

“If you go with him, I will kill you! I will definitely kill you!”

When he arrived at the door of the bedroom on the second floor, he saw Mu Shiyan being held down on the bed by several male medical staff, and even his wrists and ankles were tied with cotton ropes. He was roaring and struggling in a heart-rending manner. Liang Mochen was stunned at the door, “What happened to Shi Yan?”

“Second brother he…” Gu Yi’s throat seemed to be stuck with something, and he choked a little. He coughed a few times and cleared his throat: “The doctor said it was schizophrenia. The brain was stimulated and split into another second brother with a violent personality. The second brother we usually see has been almost swallowed up by this violent he.”

“Second brother was afraid that he would hurt Sheng Jin again, so he prepared a way out for himself in advance. After leaving the hospital, he came here and asked me to tie him up. Before he got sick… he invited a doctor.”

Mu Shiyan’s pupils were dilated on the bed, and his hands were all red. He scratched himself with his nails when he struggled, and the dense needle holes on the back of his hands were all caused by he.

The needle holes left by the sedatives the doctor gave him when he lost control of his emotions.

“If this continues, the second brother will really be ruined.” Gu Yi really couldn’t bear to see the second brother like this, “Brother, can you tell Sheng Jin? Let her come over and see the second brother. Maybe after she comes, the second brother’s mood will be stabilized, which will help his recovery.”

Liang Mochen refused, “Shi Yan prepared this place in advance to prevent himself from hurting Xiaojin. If Xiaojin comes here and is hurt by him, he will not forgive himself after he wakes up.”

After watching Mu Shiyan calm down after taking the sedative, his eyes gradually lost focus, and he lay calmly on the bed, they walked in.

The medical staff left, leaving only the three of us in the room.

Gu Yi went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette. Liang Mochen stood in front of the bed and saw Mu Shiyan with sunken eyes and a vicissitudes of face. He, who was selfish, felt a little moved, “Do you need me to bring Xiaojin over?”

Hearing Sheng Jin’s name, Mu Shiyan seemed to have regained consciousness. He shook his head stiffly and slowly, “Don’t… don’t let her… see me… like this… now.”

“Take her… as far as possible, and never let me… find her.”

Otherwise, he is afraid that he will hurt her again.

Mu Shiyan closed his eyes, his clenched fists trembling.

He is holding back, holding back the pain in his heart. He knows that losing that woman will be like this, but he still wants to have her. After having that woman, he can’t help but hurt her.

In order not to hurt her anymore, he can only live here like a ghost until he returns to normal.

…

Liang Mochen met Mu Shiyan’s attending physician and learned that this condition is difficult to cure. The only way is to make the patient forget the pain. “Mr. Mu has received various psychological treatments, but without any results. In recent years, it has become more serious. As you know, Mr. Liang, Mr. Mu was like this three years ago, but at that time he could still control his emotions and was not as out of control as he is now.”

“I suggested hypnotherapy to Mr. Mu from the beginning, but Mr. Mu refused.”

Liang Mochen asked: “Why refuse?”

“Hypnotherapy is to erase the memory of the root cause of Mr. Mu’s illness. Mr. Mu’s heart is about his mother’s death and Miss Sheng. He loves Miss Sheng, but he hates Miss Sheng for killing his mother by mistake. Between love and hate, he can’t make a choice at all, so he split into two extremes. One is that he loves Miss Sheng for being too cruel, and the other is just…

He hates Miss Sheng too much. Looking at Mr. Mu’s current situation, if he wants to return to normal, the only treatment at the moment is to erase all memories of Miss Sheng.”

The doctor added: “Of course, there is another way of treatment, which is to treat with love. Mr. Mu loves Miss Sheng very much. If Ms. Sheng is willing to use love to influence Mr. Mu, stay with Mr. Mu here for a long time, and slowly try to resolve Mr. Mu’s knot, it will also help Mr. Mu recover.”

After hearing the doctor’s advice, Liang Mochen lit a cigarette and stood on the balcony to smoke for a while. He thought of Sheng Jin’s face as pale as paper and the loneliness in her eyes when she heard Mu Shiyan’s name. It must also be love, right?She also loves Mu Shiyan…

If it is treated with love, the two people who love each other will definitely be able to resolve their knots and accept each other, right?

But if hypnotherapy is used to erase the memory, then Mu Shiyan will forget Sheng Jin and will never bother her again…

If there is no more entanglement, there will be no more contact and communication…

At this time, Liang Mochen realized that he was not a saint, and he also had his own selfish motives.